bleh
:/ im really confused. i kinda like someone. but i dont know if i should because of who it is and also every time i like someone they never like me back and i just end up getting hurt. i dont even know if i like him, but other people told me it seems like i do...mkay. uch.
anyways, good weekend. Beach on friday, fun fun. Went to richardsons friday night and met anna's friend Ben from florida, hes cool. funny guy. Saturday hung out with peeps and karen made us walk to a sketchy park in lynn. Today pool party at esty's. discovered i was being "obvious" about my feelings so i just tried to not talk to him or be around him but then i just felt bad because were friends and i wanted to hang out with him and everyone else was doing what seemed to be the same things that i did but of course its okay for them to do it. And i dont know why but it bothers me when people are like, does he like you? and i say i doubt it. and they are like well you never know, he might. I do know. Guys never like me. seriously. i think 1 guy has liked me my whole life. and that turned out to be a waste of time. so i dont know what im doing and i dont know what im talking about so im gonna try to be happy and ignore my feelings like i always do. so woo hoo. not in a sarcastic way.
<3 <3 <3 me