Nov 28, 2004 14:18
...yawn....
Im overwhelmed with the emptiness of my house and the silence that brings. Its a beautiful thing and im really enjoying the moment.
Can i just say how much i love my friends and how thankful i am to be blessed with them? Well, i just did so ha! I really do love you guys, really i do. All you crazy, wonderful, loving and sweet natured ppl make life so boondevar. Always there when it matters, always making memories with me that i will carry for a lifetime. Thank you :)
Sunday school brought a valuble lesson today. God cant work out His divine plan for my life if i hold meaningless grudges or hold onto things that build a wall between me and my savior. So that got me thinking... There is only one thing im holding onto (one that came to mind), only because i was heartbroken over it and thats not easy to get over. However, thats no excuse to hold onto it. If we are to aim to be Christlike, then it is my daily task to forgive those that have wronged me, and love them just as God has. Im not blameless; therfore i cannot remain hurt any longer. I must fogive and realize that even tho we are Christians... we are not perfect, we are still human (and boys will be boys.) So today is the day that marks my journey of forgiving and letting God restore my opinion of you. Here goes... something :).
On a similar note, as im sittin in bible study this morning (half asleep) Im listening to the message of how we are to praise God and be joyful in times of despair and tribulation. As Christians we are to praise God for the bad times, cause its in those times that He is shaping us for His plan.
That got me thinking.... As christians we should be joyful, and we know that God will bring good from the bad we may be expereincing and we KNOW this. Yet while in the midst of it all... why are we consumed with the feeling of uncertainty of where it will all go? I mean we KNOW that it will all be ok, but at the same time we dont KNOW. I got myself rather confused sitting on the couch in bible study, cause i asked myself ' if i know that God will bring good outta this, yet while experiencing it Im not joyful... am i stumbling in my walk somehow? By not being joyful in the bad times, am i wrong?'
OK... now i have myself pondering all these thoughts again..oye vey i feel a headache coming on lol. Its all good tho, cause nothing can take away my joy right now! I have Wedneaday off.. and im going to SIMPSON baby! WOO WOO!! Time to see My BIRTHDAY GIRL! and yes... im coming with party hats and a big GINORMOUS bow on my head! its gonna be a blast! PLUS... all this week i have late shifts... so i can get homework down first thing! PRAISE GOD! alright im outta here... im tired and got stuff to do.. later!