Jan 27, 2006 21:11
Jason,
You care about me so much and you should know that I care about you an extreme amount as well. I see you everyday and you make me smile. I think that we have a future together, that being in the future though. I need time to get my life together, to get my things in order. I think I love you , but I don't know if I love you or just love how you love me. I think right now isnt the time to be getting too concerned with that because there are so many more issues at hand. I am scared when I see you because I see how strong your feelings are, my greatest fear is that if i dig deep enough I will find out that my feelings are just as strong. I don't know if I can handle it. Before you I had my first like real relationship, and I kinda feel like i want time to fool around, not jump from hardcore relationship to another one.
James,
fuck you you stupid cunt. I am so much better than you. You hate me for no reason, i just dont see why things cant be cool between us. Im the best you will ever get and the most you will ever deserve. You lost out big time.