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Matty and I got into another fight a few minutes ago. Oh goody. This is the important parts, although it's very long, and he types a lot faster than me, so it may be a tad confusing:
IHaveABruisedEgo (7:55 PM): Are you going to get upset with me in a few days?... or minutes...
CgSquall06 (7:55 PM): i cant guarantee anything.
IHaveABruisedEgo (7:55 PM):
CgSquall06 (7:55 PM): i dont want to say i won't, and then i do
CgSquall06 (7:55 PM): i can't guarantee anything, there are no certainties in life
CgSquall06 (7:56 PM): just like you can't guarantee you'll actually tell me things
CgSquall06 (7:56 PM): which, if you don't, i honestly will not talk to you
IHaveABruisedEgo (7:56 PM): So how's life been treating you?
CgSquall06 (7:56 PM): shitty
CgSquall06 (7:56 PM): you?
IHaveABruisedEgo (7:56 PM): Bad question... shit.
IHaveABruisedEgo (7:57 PM): Lead me back down the same path.
IHaveABruisedEgo (7:57 PM): Oh well...
IHaveABruisedEgo (7:57 PM): It's been pretty bad, but I'm attempting to improve it.
CgSquall06 (7:57 PM): jeez you're so paranoid.
IHaveABruisedEgo (7:57 PM): I have a good reason to be.
CgSquall06 (7:57 PM): not really.
IHaveABruisedEgo (7:57 PM): Fine, you win.
CgSquall06 (7:57 PM): and honestly, i dont think you have the right to say you're life has been pretty bad
CgSquall06 (7:58 PM): only thing wrong with your life is that your boyfriend is grounded
IHaveABruisedEgo (7:58 PM): You win.
CgSquall06 (7:58 PM): sammy, quit being like this..
IHaveABruisedEgo (7:58 PM): Sorry.
CgSquall06 (7:58 PM): you're so afraid its not even funny.
IHaveABruisedEgo (7:58 PM): I'll stop now.
CgSquall06 (7:58 PM): just be yourself, stop being so paranoid and afraid.
CgSquall06 (7:59 PM): oh btw, i am curious about something else.
IHaveABruisedEgo (7:59 PM): That's the kind of person I am, unless you tell me otherwise.
CgSquall06 (7:59 PM): did you actually not mean it even once?
IHaveABruisedEgo (7:59 PM): I'm not exactly sure.
CgSquall06 (7:59 PM): honestly, i'm pretty sure you actually meant it when you said it
CgSquall06 (7:59 PM): oh well
CgSquall06 (8:00 PM): today was my last day of school
CgSquall06 (8:00 PM): so of course i have so many numbers and s/ns and crap written on my hands its not funny..
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:00 PM): I was sure when I said it, but I wish I could've changed it, and that's why I'm not sure anymore.
CgSquall06 (8:00 PM): a bit of advice about me sammy
CgSquall06 (8:01 PM): when you're talking to me, don't put up an elaborate front, it always tends to piss me off more than anybody just coming right out and telling me the truth.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:01 PM): Will do.
CgSquall06 (8:02 PM): maybe i should just stop talking while i'm ahead..
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:02 PM): Stop talking completely?
CgSquall06 (8:03 PM): maybe i should, because you're just doing it all over again
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:03 PM): You have to remember, I'm slow and not very good at common sense.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:03 PM): What am I doing?
CgSquall06 (8:04 PM): you're being so damn distant
CgSquall06 (8:04 PM): and you're just listening to me, not even thinking
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:04 PM): I never think.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:05 PM): It's nothing unusual.
CgSquall06 (8:05 PM): start thinking
CgSquall06 (8:05 PM): or we'll never get along.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:06 PM): We used to get along just fine until...
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:06 PM): Yeah.
CgSquall06 (8:06 PM): because you used to actually think when you were around me, or at least it seemed like it
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:08 PM): I don't recall it, but you're probably right.
CgSquall06 (8:10 PM): okay, i'm just going to stop talking, and if you choose to start thinking, or being yourself for once, feel free to talk again.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:11 PM): I am being myself.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:11 PM): Nevermind... you're right. What is the real me?
CgSquall06 (8:12 PM): i dont know
CgSquall06 (8:12 PM): but all i know is that when you're being so damn paranoid and afraid, i dont want to speak to you
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:12 PM): This is me.
Auto response from CgSquall06:
CgSquall06 (8:12 PM): ill brb.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:13 PM): If I do not please someone I care about, I change (to a certain extent) until they're satisfied.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:13 PM): Obviously you're not satisfied, so please tell me how I act.
CgSquall06 (8:16 PM): i've told you, and you'll please me when you're being yourself, and you stop being paranoid and so afraid to tell me things
CgSquall06 (8:16 PM): and until you do that, don't talk to me then.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:16 PM): What would you like me to tell you?
CgSquall06 (8:17 PM): sammy
CgSquall06 (8:18 PM): you told me you were afraid to tell me things
CgSquall06 (8:18 PM): because you were afraid of my reaction
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:18 PM): I'm willing to tell you now.
CgSquall06 (8:18 PM): but you're still afraid of what i'm going to say..
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:18 PM): I realized that getting bitched at is a lot less worse than losing you completely.
CgSquall06 (8:21 PM): why the hell do you care about me so much?
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:21 PM): I'm not sure.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:30 PM): Please don't be upset with me again...
CgSquall06 (8:30 PM): well
CgSquall06 (8:30 PM): im not
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:33 PM): *Sighs...*
CgSquall06 (8:34 PM): sammy
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:34 PM): Yes?
CgSquall06 (8:34 PM): i dont know what to say to you right no
CgSquall06 (8:34 PM): now*
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:34 PM): That's bad, right?
CgSquall06 (8:34 PM): because honestly, if being yourself is just changing to appease other people, then thats not being yourself
CgSquall06 (8:34 PM): and i dont want you to change to please me, i want you to be yourself, so you're actually happy for once.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:34 PM): I am happy.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:35 PM): If you were with me right now, you could see the pure glee in my eyes.
CgSquall06 (8:35 PM): why's that?
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:35 PM): I've no reason not to be happy.
CgSquall06 (8:36 PM): whatever you say
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:37 PM): Why do you think I'm so sad?
CgSquall06 (8:37 PM): i didnt say you were sad
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:37 PM): You implied it.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:38 PM): Fine.
CgSquall06 (8:38 PM): well....true happiness...thats what i want for you.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:38 PM): I'll rephrase my question...
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:38 PM): Why do you think I'm so unhappy?
CgSquall06 (8:38 PM): honestly, how can you be happy when you change to please other people?
CgSquall06 (8:38 PM): i don't change for anybody, and i make other people happy myself, also i have friends.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:39 PM): Because it makes me happy to see people I care about happy.
CgSquall06 (8:39 PM): "Just one more night, one more score.....Another question in my mind can't take no more......Kissing the tears from your face, as they fall, to the ground in silence...........In twilight, and faded time, spirits cold with no love. Bells ring the lonely chime. Candlefire, these lit dreams can't burn alone......."
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:40 PM): I don't deserve your pure lyrics. (If they're lyrics at all...)
CgSquall06 (8:40 PM): "The winds of change, bring songs upon my memory, and empty heart and soul intoxicates me. This darkened page orchestrates my final destiny. Not knowing what, what tomorrow may bring. From within the mirror's eyes, i'm forced to run away and hide. I feel those mystic eyes subside and leave me blind, through passages in time. A prisoner locked behind a door, lonely roses slowly wither and die."
CgSquall06 (8:42 PM): "I can't escape, this captive misery. Heart stone cold under supremacy. Thrown into a raging sea of tyranny. Love's firewalls have tangled me in webs, eternally within my future's dwebs, playing the violent strings of the symphony..."
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:42 PM): Ugh...
CgSquall06 (8:43 PM): "Transcend the absence of this fantasy, just another vision washed away with the tide, a place for forgotten, i cannot deny. What lies beyond, beyond this fantasy........From within the mirror's eyes, i'm forced to run away and hide, i feel those mystic eyes subside, and leave me blind.......Through passages in time, a prisoner locked behind a door! Lonely roses slowly wither and die...."
CgSquall06 (8:44 PM): "From within the mirror's eyes! I'm forced to run and hide. I feel those mystic eyes subside..and leeavvess me blind. Through passages in time, a prisoner locked...Behind a door, lonely roses slowly wither and die"
CgSquall06 (8:44 PM): -End-
CgSquall06 (8:44 PM): you do realize, the only reason i continued was because you told me you didnt deserve it
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:44 PM):
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:44 PM): That, in my opinion, is a silly reason.
CgSquall06 (8:44 PM): why didn't you think you deserved my 'pure' lyrics anyways.
CgSquall06 (8:44 PM): hmpf
CgSquall06 (8:44 PM): quite a good reason actually.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:45 PM): You basically contractied yourself.
CgSquall06 (8:45 PM): think about it, you're being negative about yourself.
CgSquall06 (8:45 PM): i just need to proove you wrong.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:45 PM): I'm only repeating you.
CgSquall06 (8:45 PM): wrong
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:45 PM): Why do you need to prove me wrong so bad?
CgSquall06 (8:45 PM): i told you not to listen to nightwish
CgSquall06 (8:45 PM): and i still hold that opinion.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:45 PM): Or anything else you gave me.
CgSquall06 (8:46 PM): and i never gave you Candlelight Fantasia
CgSquall06 (8:46 PM): by Symphony X
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:46 PM): You said it was pure and for good people, and I was neither or those.
CgSquall06 (8:46 PM): truly, are you?
CgSquall06 (8:46 PM): in your opinion, are you
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:46 PM): Yes, you did.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:47 PM): No, I told you I was a bad person the entire time, but you didn't listen to me until I proved it to you.
CgSquall06 (8:47 PM): well honestly, i'm getting tired of your negativity
CgSquall06 (8:47 PM): well, don't be so damn negative
CgSquall06 (8:47 PM): if you keep telling yourself you're a bad person, then thats what you'll be.
CgSquall06 (8:47 PM): thats why i try to not keep an opinion of myself in my mind
CgSquall06 (8:47 PM): it lets me truly be myself.
CgSquall06 (8:48 PM): when you stop caring what other people think about you, and you start just saying whats on your mind, and doing whats on your mind, instead of following a crowd, or doing or saying what people tell you to
CgSquall06 (8:48 PM): thats when you're yourself
CgSquall06 (8:48 PM): ...and thats how you can become truly happy.
CgSquall06 (8:48 PM): is that really so hard to understand?
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:49 PM): No.
CgSquall06 (8:49 PM): exactly.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:49 PM): I don't need to be happy.
CgSquall06 (8:49 PM): why not?
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:50 PM): I do not desire happiness, therefore I do not try to obtain it.
CgSquall06 (8:50 PM): so, in other terms
CgSquall06 (8:50 PM): you're a complete idiot.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:50 PM): What's your point?
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:50 PM): I've already gotten that far.
CgSquall06 (8:51 PM): if you don't want to be happy, you're an idiot.
CgSquall06 (8:51 PM): thats my point
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:51 PM): Well, tell me something I don't know for a change.
CgSquall06 (8:51 PM): and i don't enjoy speaking to idiots, or people that aren't being themselves
CgSquall06 (8:51 PM): you, are both of those things right now.
CgSquall06 (8:51 PM): i doubt you even know who you are.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:51 PM): Well, you're not satisfied either way.
CgSquall06 (8:52 PM): if you were being yourself, i'd be happy for you
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:52 PM): If I have a different opinion than you, you bitch at me, instead of simply telling me yours.
CgSquall06 (8:52 PM): but you're not.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:52 PM): If I agree with you, you say I'm not being myself and bitch at me for that.
CgSquall06 (8:52 PM): i havnt been angry all night
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:52 PM): So, this is a catch 22 situation.
CgSquall06 (8:52 PM): maybe because you ARENT being yourself?
CgSquall06 (8:53 PM): i do believe you're the one who said it first
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:53 PM): I don't think you know how to be happy for me.
CgSquall06 (8:53 PM): about a week or so ago
CgSquall06 (8:53 PM): you said "you don't even know the real me, i've been hiding it from you"
CgSquall06 (8:53 PM): i know how to be happy for other people
CgSquall06 (8:53 PM): but not frauds.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:54 PM): What the hell do you want from me?
CgSquall06 (8:54 PM): i've told you, and quit getting so worked up
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:55 PM): So if I be myself, do you promise not to get pissed.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:55 PM): ?*
CgSquall06 (8:56 PM): i can't promise anything
CgSquall06 (8:56 PM): like i've told you before.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:57 PM): Fuck it then. You're never happy with anything I do.
Then I blocked him, and he went on another screen name...
CgMatty (8:58 PM): you should know by now, that i won't promise not to get angry at something, because i dont know what you're going to tell me, but you're the one getting all pissy tonight, i havnt even felt the slightest urge to get angry tonight
CgMatty (8:58 PM): i just want you to be yourself, instead of putting up this front.
CgMatty (8:58 PM): but fine, if you want to get pissy, i guess i dont need to talk to you, have a nice life.
Shortly after, I unblocked him, being that I was no longer upset. He IMed me and now we're talking like nothing ever happened. It's so weird...
I need to talk to Julian. Damnit.
IHaveABruisedEgo (7:55 PM): Are you going to get upset with me in a few days?... or minutes...
CgSquall06 (7:55 PM): i cant guarantee anything.
IHaveABruisedEgo (7:55 PM):
CgSquall06 (7:55 PM): i dont want to say i won't, and then i do
CgSquall06 (7:55 PM): i can't guarantee anything, there are no certainties in life
CgSquall06 (7:56 PM): just like you can't guarantee you'll actually tell me things
CgSquall06 (7:56 PM): which, if you don't, i honestly will not talk to you
IHaveABruisedEgo (7:56 PM): So how's life been treating you?
CgSquall06 (7:56 PM): shitty
CgSquall06 (7:56 PM): you?
IHaveABruisedEgo (7:56 PM): Bad question... shit.
IHaveABruisedEgo (7:57 PM): Lead me back down the same path.
IHaveABruisedEgo (7:57 PM): Oh well...
IHaveABruisedEgo (7:57 PM): It's been pretty bad, but I'm attempting to improve it.
CgSquall06 (7:57 PM): jeez you're so paranoid.
IHaveABruisedEgo (7:57 PM): I have a good reason to be.
CgSquall06 (7:57 PM): not really.
IHaveABruisedEgo (7:57 PM): Fine, you win.
CgSquall06 (7:57 PM): and honestly, i dont think you have the right to say you're life has been pretty bad
CgSquall06 (7:58 PM): only thing wrong with your life is that your boyfriend is grounded
IHaveABruisedEgo (7:58 PM): You win.
CgSquall06 (7:58 PM): sammy, quit being like this..
IHaveABruisedEgo (7:58 PM): Sorry.
CgSquall06 (7:58 PM): you're so afraid its not even funny.
IHaveABruisedEgo (7:58 PM): I'll stop now.
CgSquall06 (7:58 PM): just be yourself, stop being so paranoid and afraid.
CgSquall06 (7:59 PM): oh btw, i am curious about something else.
IHaveABruisedEgo (7:59 PM): That's the kind of person I am, unless you tell me otherwise.
CgSquall06 (7:59 PM): did you actually not mean it even once?
IHaveABruisedEgo (7:59 PM): I'm not exactly sure.
CgSquall06 (7:59 PM): honestly, i'm pretty sure you actually meant it when you said it
CgSquall06 (7:59 PM): oh well
CgSquall06 (8:00 PM): today was my last day of school
CgSquall06 (8:00 PM): so of course i have so many numbers and s/ns and crap written on my hands its not funny..
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:00 PM): I was sure when I said it, but I wish I could've changed it, and that's why I'm not sure anymore.
CgSquall06 (8:00 PM): a bit of advice about me sammy
CgSquall06 (8:01 PM): when you're talking to me, don't put up an elaborate front, it always tends to piss me off more than anybody just coming right out and telling me the truth.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:01 PM): Will do.
CgSquall06 (8:02 PM): maybe i should just stop talking while i'm ahead..
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:02 PM): Stop talking completely?
CgSquall06 (8:03 PM): maybe i should, because you're just doing it all over again
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:03 PM): You have to remember, I'm slow and not very good at common sense.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:03 PM): What am I doing?
CgSquall06 (8:04 PM): you're being so damn distant
CgSquall06 (8:04 PM): and you're just listening to me, not even thinking
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:04 PM): I never think.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:05 PM): It's nothing unusual.
CgSquall06 (8:05 PM): start thinking
CgSquall06 (8:05 PM): or we'll never get along.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:06 PM): We used to get along just fine until...
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:06 PM): Yeah.
CgSquall06 (8:06 PM): because you used to actually think when you were around me, or at least it seemed like it
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:08 PM): I don't recall it, but you're probably right.
CgSquall06 (8:10 PM): okay, i'm just going to stop talking, and if you choose to start thinking, or being yourself for once, feel free to talk again.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:11 PM): I am being myself.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:11 PM): Nevermind... you're right. What is the real me?
CgSquall06 (8:12 PM): i dont know
CgSquall06 (8:12 PM): but all i know is that when you're being so damn paranoid and afraid, i dont want to speak to you
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:12 PM): This is me.
Auto response from CgSquall06:
CgSquall06 (8:12 PM): ill brb.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:13 PM): If I do not please someone I care about, I change (to a certain extent) until they're satisfied.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:13 PM): Obviously you're not satisfied, so please tell me how I act.
CgSquall06 (8:16 PM): i've told you, and you'll please me when you're being yourself, and you stop being paranoid and so afraid to tell me things
CgSquall06 (8:16 PM): and until you do that, don't talk to me then.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:16 PM): What would you like me to tell you?
CgSquall06 (8:17 PM): sammy
CgSquall06 (8:18 PM): you told me you were afraid to tell me things
CgSquall06 (8:18 PM): because you were afraid of my reaction
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:18 PM): I'm willing to tell you now.
CgSquall06 (8:18 PM): but you're still afraid of what i'm going to say..
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:18 PM): I realized that getting bitched at is a lot less worse than losing you completely.
CgSquall06 (8:21 PM): why the hell do you care about me so much?
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:21 PM): I'm not sure.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:30 PM): Please don't be upset with me again...
CgSquall06 (8:30 PM): well
CgSquall06 (8:30 PM): im not
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:33 PM): *Sighs...*
CgSquall06 (8:34 PM): sammy
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:34 PM): Yes?
CgSquall06 (8:34 PM): i dont know what to say to you right no
CgSquall06 (8:34 PM): now*
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:34 PM): That's bad, right?
CgSquall06 (8:34 PM): because honestly, if being yourself is just changing to appease other people, then thats not being yourself
CgSquall06 (8:34 PM): and i dont want you to change to please me, i want you to be yourself, so you're actually happy for once.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:34 PM): I am happy.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:35 PM): If you were with me right now, you could see the pure glee in my eyes.
CgSquall06 (8:35 PM): why's that?
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:35 PM): I've no reason not to be happy.
CgSquall06 (8:36 PM): whatever you say
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:37 PM): Why do you think I'm so sad?
CgSquall06 (8:37 PM): i didnt say you were sad
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:37 PM): You implied it.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:38 PM): Fine.
CgSquall06 (8:38 PM): well....true happiness...thats what i want for you.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:38 PM): I'll rephrase my question...
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:38 PM): Why do you think I'm so unhappy?
CgSquall06 (8:38 PM): honestly, how can you be happy when you change to please other people?
CgSquall06 (8:38 PM): i don't change for anybody, and i make other people happy myself, also i have friends.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:39 PM): Because it makes me happy to see people I care about happy.
CgSquall06 (8:39 PM): "Just one more night, one more score.....Another question in my mind can't take no more......Kissing the tears from your face, as they fall, to the ground in silence...........In twilight, and faded time, spirits cold with no love. Bells ring the lonely chime. Candlefire, these lit dreams can't burn alone......."
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:40 PM): I don't deserve your pure lyrics. (If they're lyrics at all...)
CgSquall06 (8:40 PM): "The winds of change, bring songs upon my memory, and empty heart and soul intoxicates me. This darkened page orchestrates my final destiny. Not knowing what, what tomorrow may bring. From within the mirror's eyes, i'm forced to run away and hide. I feel those mystic eyes subside and leave me blind, through passages in time. A prisoner locked behind a door, lonely roses slowly wither and die."
CgSquall06 (8:42 PM): "I can't escape, this captive misery. Heart stone cold under supremacy. Thrown into a raging sea of tyranny. Love's firewalls have tangled me in webs, eternally within my future's dwebs, playing the violent strings of the symphony..."
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:42 PM): Ugh...
CgSquall06 (8:43 PM): "Transcend the absence of this fantasy, just another vision washed away with the tide, a place for forgotten, i cannot deny. What lies beyond, beyond this fantasy........From within the mirror's eyes, i'm forced to run away and hide, i feel those mystic eyes subside, and leave me blind.......Through passages in time, a prisoner locked behind a door! Lonely roses slowly wither and die...."
CgSquall06 (8:44 PM): "From within the mirror's eyes! I'm forced to run and hide. I feel those mystic eyes subside..and leeavvess me blind. Through passages in time, a prisoner locked...Behind a door, lonely roses slowly wither and die"
CgSquall06 (8:44 PM): -End-
CgSquall06 (8:44 PM): you do realize, the only reason i continued was because you told me you didnt deserve it
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:44 PM):
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:44 PM): That, in my opinion, is a silly reason.
CgSquall06 (8:44 PM): why didn't you think you deserved my 'pure' lyrics anyways.
CgSquall06 (8:44 PM): hmpf
CgSquall06 (8:44 PM): quite a good reason actually.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:45 PM): You basically contractied yourself.
CgSquall06 (8:45 PM): think about it, you're being negative about yourself.
CgSquall06 (8:45 PM): i just need to proove you wrong.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:45 PM): I'm only repeating you.
CgSquall06 (8:45 PM): wrong
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:45 PM): Why do you need to prove me wrong so bad?
CgSquall06 (8:45 PM): i told you not to listen to nightwish
CgSquall06 (8:45 PM): and i still hold that opinion.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:45 PM): Or anything else you gave me.
CgSquall06 (8:46 PM): and i never gave you Candlelight Fantasia
CgSquall06 (8:46 PM): by Symphony X
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:46 PM): You said it was pure and for good people, and I was neither or those.
CgSquall06 (8:46 PM): truly, are you?
CgSquall06 (8:46 PM): in your opinion, are you
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:46 PM): Yes, you did.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:47 PM): No, I told you I was a bad person the entire time, but you didn't listen to me until I proved it to you.
CgSquall06 (8:47 PM): well honestly, i'm getting tired of your negativity
CgSquall06 (8:47 PM): well, don't be so damn negative
CgSquall06 (8:47 PM): if you keep telling yourself you're a bad person, then thats what you'll be.
CgSquall06 (8:47 PM): thats why i try to not keep an opinion of myself in my mind
CgSquall06 (8:47 PM): it lets me truly be myself.
CgSquall06 (8:48 PM): when you stop caring what other people think about you, and you start just saying whats on your mind, and doing whats on your mind, instead of following a crowd, or doing or saying what people tell you to
CgSquall06 (8:48 PM): thats when you're yourself
CgSquall06 (8:48 PM): ...and thats how you can become truly happy.
CgSquall06 (8:48 PM): is that really so hard to understand?
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:49 PM): No.
CgSquall06 (8:49 PM): exactly.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:49 PM): I don't need to be happy.
CgSquall06 (8:49 PM): why not?
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:50 PM): I do not desire happiness, therefore I do not try to obtain it.
CgSquall06 (8:50 PM): so, in other terms
CgSquall06 (8:50 PM): you're a complete idiot.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:50 PM): What's your point?
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:50 PM): I've already gotten that far.
CgSquall06 (8:51 PM): if you don't want to be happy, you're an idiot.
CgSquall06 (8:51 PM): thats my point
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:51 PM): Well, tell me something I don't know for a change.
CgSquall06 (8:51 PM): and i don't enjoy speaking to idiots, or people that aren't being themselves
CgSquall06 (8:51 PM): you, are both of those things right now.
CgSquall06 (8:51 PM): i doubt you even know who you are.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:51 PM): Well, you're not satisfied either way.
CgSquall06 (8:52 PM): if you were being yourself, i'd be happy for you
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:52 PM): If I have a different opinion than you, you bitch at me, instead of simply telling me yours.
CgSquall06 (8:52 PM): but you're not.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:52 PM): If I agree with you, you say I'm not being myself and bitch at me for that.
CgSquall06 (8:52 PM): i havnt been angry all night
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:52 PM): So, this is a catch 22 situation.
CgSquall06 (8:52 PM): maybe because you ARENT being yourself?
CgSquall06 (8:53 PM): i do believe you're the one who said it first
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:53 PM): I don't think you know how to be happy for me.
CgSquall06 (8:53 PM): about a week or so ago
CgSquall06 (8:53 PM): you said "you don't even know the real me, i've been hiding it from you"
CgSquall06 (8:53 PM): i know how to be happy for other people
CgSquall06 (8:53 PM): but not frauds.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:54 PM): What the hell do you want from me?
CgSquall06 (8:54 PM): i've told you, and quit getting so worked up
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:55 PM): So if I be myself, do you promise not to get pissed.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:55 PM): ?*
CgSquall06 (8:56 PM): i can't promise anything
CgSquall06 (8:56 PM): like i've told you before.
IHaveABruisedEgo (8:57 PM): Fuck it then. You're never happy with anything I do.
Then I blocked him, and he went on another screen name...
CgMatty (8:58 PM): you should know by now, that i won't promise not to get angry at something, because i dont know what you're going to tell me, but you're the one getting all pissy tonight, i havnt even felt the slightest urge to get angry tonight
CgMatty (8:58 PM): i just want you to be yourself, instead of putting up this front.
CgMatty (8:58 PM): but fine, if you want to get pissy, i guess i dont need to talk to you, have a nice life.
Shortly after, I unblocked him, being that I was no longer upset. He IMed me and now we're talking like nothing ever happened. It's so weird...
I need to talk to Julian. Damnit.