How I got started
Over the last 2 years or so, I've discovered a variety of kinks and fetishes that I never knew I had but diapers were my first fetish from as far back as I can remember. I remember one time at around 5 when my mom put a diaper on me as punishment. At the time though, I was pretty pissed off about the incident but also felt a bit of security as well. I've often felt that my interest in diapers and age play was a manifestation of a deeper need for love and nurturing that was absent in my childhood. My parents never really played with me and I have a hard time as an adult actually relating to children because I don't know how to play. So I have no idea how an interest in diapers developed from that nor do I know why a need for nurturing and love would manifest itself as a desire to wear diapers. What I do know is that I get a sense of security and safety from wearing them plus I enjoy the bulky feeling between my legs.
My interest in age play and specifically infantilism is a more recent development. When I've done bdsm scenes, the submissive state that I go into is that of a young child. It's quite babylike and the need for nurturing becomes quite intense. I've really wanted to explore that side of me further but it's not someplace I can go alone. I've not been able to get into the headspace of being a baby by myself. If I could afford it, I'd hire a pro domme who specializes in infantilism to do that kind of a scene. I think it would be theraputic. It's a rare thing to find a partner at all these days. Even rarer to find a kinky partner, let alone a partner willing to indulge in a diaper festish.
So anyway that's a bit about me or the fetish me. I've been a bit bold lately and worn a diaper to work the last two days and I've enjoyed the freedom of not having to visit the bathroom for pee breaks. Heh.
My interest in age play and specifically infantilism is a more recent development. When I've done bdsm scenes, the submissive state that I go into is that of a young child. It's quite babylike and the need for nurturing becomes quite intense. I've really wanted to explore that side of me further but it's not someplace I can go alone. I've not been able to get into the headspace of being a baby by myself. If I could afford it, I'd hire a pro domme who specializes in infantilism to do that kind of a scene. I think it would be theraputic. It's a rare thing to find a partner at all these days. Even rarer to find a kinky partner, let alone a partner willing to indulge in a diaper festish.
So anyway that's a bit about me or the fetish me. I've been a bit bold lately and worn a diaper to work the last two days and I've enjoyed the freedom of not having to visit the bathroom for pee breaks. Heh.