toys are for lil boys....

[babyboi_jb]

self actualization and realization are funny things. when you have that moment of epiphany, it's enlightening. i just sent someone an email and i just read sumthin on myspace that made me come to my senses. i cant make him love me, hell i cant even make him like me. but i keep asking myself why i care. is it b/c right now he is unnattainable when he once was not? who is to say, but i know i need to get over him. it's getting easier. it's just dumb cuz i have almost known him for a year... i jus think i need someone to make me feel whole, but on the flip side of that, i keep realizing that i am ME... I DONT NEED NOBODY. nobody i have met or dated is good enuff for me, past, present or future. all i have met is losers, numbnuts, and boys who can't accpet who they are. i'm 23 years old. and i had/have been attracted to these 18/19 year old BOIS who dont know nuthin about nuthin and as i examine the past year or so, i keep thinknin, "DAMN, I'M THE FOOL"

here's a few words from keyshia cole's "i changed my mind" and it sooooo applies to how i feel right now

It's the funniest thing cause I
know how I feel inside
but you never felt the same as I
(never, never, never, ohh)
I miss him so much
I bet you don't even notice
and he don't even realise
Cause he...

[Pre-Chorus]
He's so caught up
He won't call her
He shows no love
So she decides

[Chorus]
I changed my mind
I don't love you
I don't love you more
Don't waste my time

peace out bitches! i'm movin on like mya said