./\.Disgusting./\.
It really upsets me that some people assume as much as they do........ It seems like I can never do things or make decisions based on what someone ELSE may have done.... It's always about this 'one person'.... It hurts that something was even SAID about it without it being said to ME first... And probably discussed with others as well.. Things like this are no one elses business... And it shows immaturity to discuss them with other people... It hurts... And its not fair... Especially when you haven't gotten your stories straight/correct.... And what's more... You complain about hypocrites... Yet I'm told things about a certain person... And then watch them become one of your 'best friends'.... And it hurts more than I can express.... I wish people would think about their actions before doing things... I wish they would get all the facts before acting.... But I guess that's life.... And life sucks.... And I guess the only lesson I've learned from all of this... Is that people will disappoint you and hurt you.... Even those you care the most about and who "care about you".... You also can't trust those you want to.... And there really isnt such a thing as a true friend.....
Those are the lessons that could have been picked up...... And I guess I believe it all... Except for the true friends part.... I have so many people I love... And who truly love me.... That although I'm losing one of the most important people in my life.... I have those who will help me pick my life back up... Grow as a person... Come to be stronger and wiser........ Although a part of me will always be gone.......
Blah.... I think tonight I'm gonna just spend indoors.... With roomie and the suitemates... Going to the gym at 9........ Really could use some company tonight.... Lemme know who wants to hang out..
Also my weekend has officially begun.... So I have all day tomorrow free... Lemme know...