I love him

[babybluetiks04]

Well today was probably one of my worst days ever. I think that the one i love is going to leave me and it is all my fault. i hung out with another guy today alone which used to be an ex crush. Jack did not like that much. But i didnt take that into concideration. Im a horable person that right now doesnt really deserve anybody, especially Jack. I love Jack so much and i would never do anything to hurt him. Thats why i didnt think it was going to be such a problem. The only problem was that this other kid hit on me and i told Jack. It i wouldnt have told him i would have felt even guiltyer then i do now. I feel like i have betrayed him in someway that i can not explain. I didnt do anything with this other kid and never would because i love jack. I also didnt take into concideration that i should not go around shopping with other guys when im dating Jack. I feel that i disrespected him and i never wanted to do that. I wish there was something i could do to change it. But i can not change what happened today. All i know is that i would never cheat on him and i would never try to hurt him. But unfortunitly i did today and i am extremly sorry for it. I love Jack and always will. Im so confused because i dont know if he will ever talk to me again. I pray to God i do because i need to tell him how sorry i am and how much i love him. He is someone i would spend forever with. I am so sorry and i am never going to hang out with that boy again.

I love you Jack

Love
Kristina