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almost sweet 16 and feeling lonelier than ever. I don't know who i am, what i want to become, and everything is just so hard. I feel like i'm alone, i feel altho i don't have many friends that i really know, I mean i know people but i'm not that close to them. My mom was talking to me tonight about a party, and i realized, i don't know who to invite... I don't really have any close friends, a few but not like i see with other people. I keep comparing my life to others probably because i don't think i have one. I'm so alone and i don't know why, i don't feel i have another to count on. So many people have there best friends to lean on, Me.. I have............... Well i don't know who i have. I wrote my Thesis paper tonight, my final, and i think it expresses a part of me, the part where doesn't know where she fits in. Who doesn't know who her friends are and who doesn't know anything in life. Paroniod people call me, in some cases yes, in some alone. I know i worry about stuff but it hit me tonight that i'm just so lost and i don't know what to do. I don't want people to feel bad for me, but i just needed to write this down so i could get it out of me, so i could just breathe, and maybe let out some frustrations..................