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So this morning i got into a fight with my sis...Seriously i have fighting, and i don't know why we've been doing that so often.. I mean she's leaving for college soon. I don't want her to leave on a bad note btwn us... God, its going to be so wierd living in my house with no siblings. See, this is when being the youngest sucks, because your the last one to leave, and your alone. Which i hate being alone.
I haven't been able to sleep very well these past few nights, I think its because i've been over thinking too much. Yesterday my folks and I went up into Saco. We ate a a place called worm woods, i think. and then we went to the beach we used to go to.. We saw our old cottage.. I wanted to cry then and there. I new they changed the hole thing, but everytime i see it i get so angry at those people. and then friends of ours who used to live down the road sold there cottage and the new owners tore it down and rebuilt a 3 story house.... Yah the house was gorgous, but i don't deal well with change. I hate change, and it takes be a bit to adapt to it, but when its something that i remember as a child and then i go and see it again, and its completely gone, that just pissed me off.
I tryed e-mailing my uncle again, still no reply.. Why does he all of a sudden repsond after 3 yrs that i haven't talked to him, and then doesn't respond back, you just can't open the door a crack and then turn away again. You just can't do that...I wish my life was perfect you know.. God, what a word, Perfect. Is there any such thing? I dont' think there is, So why do we have a word so vague as to that. I honestly don't know........
I haven't been able to sleep very well these past few nights, I think its because i've been over thinking too much. Yesterday my folks and I went up into Saco. We ate a a place called worm woods, i think. and then we went to the beach we used to go to.. We saw our old cottage.. I wanted to cry then and there. I new they changed the hole thing, but everytime i see it i get so angry at those people. and then friends of ours who used to live down the road sold there cottage and the new owners tore it down and rebuilt a 3 story house.... Yah the house was gorgous, but i don't deal well with change. I hate change, and it takes be a bit to adapt to it, but when its something that i remember as a child and then i go and see it again, and its completely gone, that just pissed me off.
I tryed e-mailing my uncle again, still no reply.. Why does he all of a sudden repsond after 3 yrs that i haven't talked to him, and then doesn't respond back, you just can't open the door a crack and then turn away again. You just can't do that...I wish my life was perfect you know.. God, what a word, Perfect. Is there any such thing? I dont' think there is, So why do we have a word so vague as to that. I honestly don't know........