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Well as some of you know and other do not. The move to California is off. Last night Anna (the roomie) called and told me that "California is not the place for me right now". I cannot afford the move on my own, nor can I emotionally handle it on my own. So I am no longer moving. I am going to move to Columbus as soon as I can find a job and a place to live. Findlay is not the place for me and since I can't do the move to Cali, I'll settle for moving away from my parents, close to my brother so he can be there if I need him, and close to Tiff. Plus the HR person at work said she would help me get a job at Sears in Columbus, so at least I could find a job to start off with.
Emotionally I am empty right now. There is no emotion. I want to feel hurt, I want to feel anger, I want to feel depression, relief, happiness, anything, but I have nothing. I have been on the verge of anxiety attacks since last night, but they never fully come to the surface. So I will be in Ohio for at least 6 more months. I figure that kind of gives me some reflection time in Columbus away from all of this. So if anyone knows someone who is looking for a roommate let me know. I might actually consider a place on my own if I can afford it.
That's all for now. I'll let you all know how I am doing and what I am doing.
Emotionally I am empty right now. There is no emotion. I want to feel hurt, I want to feel anger, I want to feel depression, relief, happiness, anything, but I have nothing. I have been on the verge of anxiety attacks since last night, but they never fully come to the surface. So I will be in Ohio for at least 6 more months. I figure that kind of gives me some reflection time in Columbus away from all of this. So if anyone knows someone who is looking for a roommate let me know. I might actually consider a place on my own if I can afford it.
That's all for now. I'll let you all know how I am doing and what I am doing.