please make me into someone that I'd rather be

[babyblu0302]

God, I need you to stretch me inside out..there's always some reason to feel not good enough. Sometimes I feel like I've come so far..but there are moments that take me back to middle school and shattered confidence and everything I want to forget all over again. it's like I'm climbing a great cliff, and I'm almost to the top when I look down and

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[ct_tim]

I'm not sure how I missed this post...

Let me start by saying that I'll never be good enough either. Luckily God doesn't care if we're good enough or not, he loves us anyway, and he gives us the capacity to love people unconditionally that aren't good enough, which is the only thing that keeps me sane. If I had a REASON to worry about perfection as much as I do... wow, I'd be nuts... because my brain runs on 99% logic.

Your metaphor for confidence is extremely well made, which just proves that you're an awesome writer like I've said before. It really does work that way... Satan waits till you're feeling better than before just to shoot you down even harder than the last time. He knows that if you get discouraged from falling, eventually you'll stop trying to climb... But one day you'll get there, you just have to keep looking directly in front of you, don't look ahead and be discouraged over the distance to go, and don't look back and be discouraged about how little ground you've covered, because none of that matters, live for today.

You are nice, and that's not all you've got going for you. You have a beautiful smile, musical ability, amazing writing skills, you're funny, and you have a good head on your shoulders... among many other things =)

Remember, every part of ourselves that we think of as a weakness, God has a purpose for. He doesn't make mistakes.

3rd try at posting this...

[babyblu0302]

I didn't answer this right away because I was a little overwhelmed..thank you so much, the encouragement means more than you can know. I still think you're a little delusional about me :p But maybe you inspire me to be better than I thought that I could be.

wow.. You're so right about satan waiting til everything's better only to bring you down harder than before..the motivation to keep climbing is so hard to come by sometimes..often not found in this world at all. Living for today's easier said than done. thanks for the reminder that God has his purposes for everything, even the weaknesses, and he loves me with his I corinthians love enough to pay the ultimate price..imagine the confidence we'd have if we just kept that at the front of our minds all the time. it's a beautiful thing :)