please make me into someone that I'd rather be
God, I need you to stretch me inside out..there's always some reason to feel not good enough. Sometimes I feel like I've come so far..but there are moments that take me back to middle school and shattered confidence and everything I want to forget all over again. it's like I'm climbing a great cliff, and I'm almost to the top when I look down and
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it's like I'm climbing a great cliff, and I'm almost to the top when I look down and get so dizzy; all I can think about is how far down the ground looks...and once again, I fall back.
I've recently been there, and I'm working my way back up the cliff. God never intended you work through things on your own though. Keep looking to Him for guidance, and long to be who He wants you to be. God has a very good reason for making you the way you are, and I personally couldn't be any happier with it. I think everyone always wishes something was different about his or her personality. We're always going to be growing and changing, because that's what God intended. We are only people, and we're weak, so just give it to God everyday. God always has what we need, so ask Him for it. He'll give you the words when you don't think you can speak.
Those days in middle school are a part of the past. The devil can only bring up the past, because unlike Christ, he doesn't know the future. He can only use the days when we didn't have confidence to make us nervous about how we'll be in the future. Read Jeremiah 29:11-14. I don't even like thinking about the future anymore. I always feel like all I do is try to work at growing now, so I'll be ready for the future, but what about today? God has a plan for every day we live, and I want to live each day as Christ wants me to. Take life one minute at a time, and give your life back to God every minute.
"Yeah, she's really nice". What does "nice" mean? Sometimes I think that's all I have going for me.. lol, and what's so bad about being nice? :p You could have worse things goin for ya.
k, sorry...that was a really long comment, but I have to go take my brother to the bathroom now. haha, talk to you later. love you.
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