Sep 27, 2004 00:33
i miss 2 people so much it hurts.
I hate being away from someone when you both know(knew) one another really well. Over time you both change so much, yet opinions of one another remain the same..and then it's so hard to go back to the way things were; impossible even.
before you say you love someone, look it up-the entire definition's right there in I Corinthians 13. Think twice about saying it, and when you do, be prepared to be in for the long haul.
life sucks right now in a lot of ways, to put it bluntly.
but
this was going to be a happy entry..seriously, think about how content you'd be if every day you looked back and thought about every single thing that made you smile throughout the day instead of focusing on the negative parts.
I'm actually kind of glad to be back home. being busy is nice though- afterwards there's no time to sit around over-analyzing everything too much because I'm already doing something else, and at night I'm so exhausted I just fall asleep. Yeah..I can sleep! How amazing is that?!
so I think I'll write a really long entry about my eventful weekend just because..yep.
Friday- movies with Em and Dave (after he got lost in the city trying to find my house because mapquest is of the devil) and since The Forgotten was sold out we ended up going to Wicker Park, the most exciting action filled movie ever...(okay, so the soundtrack made up for the lack of plot...still..3 hours!!)
Anyway..Dave already updated about all that, so moving on-when Em and I got home and tried to sneak in quietly, the house was filled with CRICKETS, not just your average little cute chirping cricket, oh no, but GIANT, ORANGE, SPIDER-LIKE, BEASTLY CRICKETS. So our plan of not waking up my parents failed. Now I have to leave all the lights on at night, they only come out when it's all dark for awhile and then when you turn on the light they all go into a frenzy. And cricket frenzies are the most terrifying things ever, let me warn you. I'm so tired. ..but I ate a whoole bunch of those smarties, so that might have something to do with why I'm talking about crickets right now.
Saturday-after 4 hours of sleep, BAND practice :( Eli was up before I left, so I sat her down and explained to her that under no circumstances was she to go in the basement and wake up Emily, since this was her only day to sleep in, and she needed her rest so to be very quiet ("k I promise"). So when I get home and ask Em if they woke her up she says she slept through the sticks beating on the windows, but finally gave up when the glass shattered all over the floor... (<-lots of dots, because there are no words)
Later we went to the Renaissance festival..in the car I had a lot of joy from rolling up and down the windows in Emily's car because it makes an exciting noise if you turn up the speaker volume. And then if you do it 2 at a time..out of control fun times. Don't go to the Renaissance festival unless you have a lot of cash on you..the admission is arms and legs and drinks are like $4.. it was so much fun as usual though, scary people walking around calling each other wenches and such. We saw a real dead gremlin (which reminded us of Kristen..obviously :). The most excitement of the day was the hypnotist's show -he called a bunch of people up onstage for 'a little experiment' and they ended up doing everything he said. The best part was when he told them that they were all amazing actors and to get on their chairs and demonstrate the most dramatic death scene possible...people gagging and falling on top of each other (all while in a state of hypnosis so their faces were expressionless) and falling on the floor... you had to be there..so if anyone is going, definitely see the hypnotist. Because that's not weird and creepy or anything.. On the way home Emily tried to hypnotise me but it didn't work as well ("relax...feel yourself relaxing..DO YOU WANT ME TO PULL OVER THIS CAR, I SAID TO &$*@#$ RELAX.")
Sat. night I went to CAA with Meg and we just sat on the swings and talked about stress, but then got really sad and upset..so we just drove around for a couple hours and vented and screamed (well, that was because of going off the road a little but I totally did that on purpose..) I like this you're-an-adult-now-so-you-can-make-your-own-decisions thing my parents are going through..although there is the occasional you-still-live-under-this-roof speech whenever I get home too late or don't do enough around the house. still, i'm trying really hard to improve those relationships.
Today...kind of lonely again..i should be getting used to the feeling though. I had to go back to church in the afternoon for a membership interview...I was nervous about it but it ended up just being Mike and I and another guy I don't know, and it was nice just to practice giving my testimony and talking about faith with people who are so full of wisdom..at the end they prayed with me and Mike just said how much he loved me and that I'm an "amazing blessing to the church" and all these crazy things (of course i can't take compliments so I just sit there with a scared looking smile), and then he couldn't talk anymore because he was about to cry..I can't express how much that meant to me, it's been so long since I've felt like anyone in my life genuinely cared that much..and it was real.
ok..that was long..time to sleep..