Still waiting
I am sitting here waiting for you. You tell me to tell my mom certian things and yet they aren;t true. I sit here and wounder when the next time you are going to make me lie to my mom for you. I can't stand it. I hate lieing to me mom and thats all you make me do. The worst thing is, is that I know that if you weren't in my life my life would suck. It scares me to sit here and think of the things I do. I tell you how I feel and you know your the only one I tell and yet you don't change a damn thing. I don't understand why. I told you last night how you made me feel and today while you were driving me home you did the same damn thing. I cry to you all the time, and all I feel like to you is your back bored. I am always there for you but its like the only time you are there for me is when your not with him. I know your in love and what not but I make time for you. It seems that I am always waiting for you and you come and go whenever you please. You have no idea how much it hurts to see you hurt yourself the way you do. The pain doesn't just hurt you....It hurts people around you and I wish you would open up your pretty blue eyes and look around. Why is it when I tell you how I feel and the things I hate about myself but yet all you can tell me to do is change? After talking with you last night I still cried myself to sleep. All you ever say is change. I can't change...Its too hard. How can you sit there and tell me I am your bestfriend, tell me you like me the way I am and yet tell me to change.
~Amy Lynn
~Amy Lynn