haha sorry i haven't talked to you since last night...
no they didn't see you, or we both would've known about it already, haha. uhmmm what else.
OOOOOHHHHHH i feel REALLY REALLY bad about yesterday.........we already talked about this.......but i just think it's pathetic that i'm THAT uptight about my parents......because i'm NOT that weird about things, seriously.......i was thinking last night i would be SO MUCH more fun if i didn't have to worry about them......not even kidding.........NOT even kidding.......im not that weird about sexuality EVER.......hahahah ask HANNAH......hahaha or maria or whatever.......it's just so different when you don't have people to worry about in the back of your head and i know i don't make things fun.......like..........when all i'm saying is "they're going to come back" or "they're going to find out" or something.......it isnt fair to you.....or me........or us, haha......
but like.........i just wish we could go somewhere REALLY far away and i wouldn't have to be like this........i mean like that..........
and yeah im fine......im breathing and everything, hahah........
but i wanted you to know it ISNT YOU and it's never been you, and i know you think that sometimes but it ISNT but i cant respond like a normal person when i'm like........ "omgomgomg they're coming omgomg theyre here omg they're going to see us omgomg im going to die in a few minutes omgomgomg".....it's really really pathetic.
sigh.
i'm sorry. i just feel really really bad and i know you told me not to worry about it but you know me.......all i do is worry......
i just wish you could like......come out with like jules and grace and brit and mar and i in the summer somewhere at like 2 in the morning.......be crazy..........hahah see me at my least stressed........hahah there's a good possibility i'd TOUCH YOU god forbid..........hahahah.........but seriously........i feel bad that you think i don't find you attractive because i DO like WHOA and its not even funny.......you're amazingly amazing.......even though i lost my ass apparently............ :( i'm sorry......... hahah and i TOLD you i have no chest........ah well........you cant have everything......but now that i don't have ANYTHING.......well.........hahahaha oh well. i'm sorry.
anyway. sooo yeah. leave me a message at 12:45 or 1ish tonight but only leave like 2....... i'm sorry :/ .......
and yeah this summer i'm going to try to see as much of you as humanly possible for me........i wouldn't try going to surgery though........idk i think it's too soon to do anything yet.......i'm sorry.......
but uhmmm idk what's going down thursday yet but i'll let you know asap......i think i have church that night too......i have church every night at 7 but idk if i'm going to all of them.......
so yeah. i'm sorry i was starting my hyperventilation stage, i'm sorry you had to see me like that, i'm sorry im losing my ass, i'm sorry this is such a sucky situation.........
i know this sounds really depressing, but i'm not even in a bad mood, hahah......i'm just realizing all the stuff that's being stupid lately. ah well. on the bright side, i've been having wonderous dreams lately that don't involve stress. :D
no they didn't see you, or we both would've known about it already, haha. uhmmm what else.
OOOOOHHHHHH i feel REALLY REALLY bad about yesterday.........we already talked about this.......but i just think it's pathetic that i'm THAT uptight about my parents......because i'm NOT that weird about things, seriously.......i was thinking last night i would be SO MUCH more fun if i didn't have to worry about them......not even kidding.........NOT even kidding.......im not that weird about sexuality EVER.......hahahah ask HANNAH......hahaha or maria or whatever.......it's just so different when you don't have people to worry about in the back of your head and i know i don't make things fun.......like..........when all i'm saying is "they're going to come back" or "they're going to find out" or something.......it isnt fair to you.....or me........or us, haha......
but like.........i just wish we could go somewhere REALLY far away and i wouldn't have to be like this........i mean like that..........
and yeah im fine......im breathing and everything, hahah........
but i wanted you to know it ISNT YOU and it's never been you, and i know you think that sometimes but it ISNT but i cant respond like a normal person when i'm like........ "omgomgomg they're coming omgomg theyre here omg they're going to see us omgomg im going to die in a few minutes omgomgomg".....it's really really pathetic.
sigh.
i'm sorry. i just feel really really bad and i know you told me not to worry about it but you know me.......all i do is worry......
i just wish you could like......come out with like jules and grace and brit and mar and i in the summer somewhere at like 2 in the morning.......be crazy..........hahah see me at my least stressed........hahah there's a good possibility i'd TOUCH YOU god forbid..........hahahah.........but seriously........i feel bad that you think i don't find you attractive because i DO like WHOA and its not even funny.......you're amazingly amazing.......even though i lost my ass apparently............ :( i'm sorry......... hahah and i TOLD you i have no chest........ah well........you cant have everything......but now that i don't have ANYTHING.......well.........hahahaha oh well. i'm sorry.
anyway. sooo yeah. leave me a message at 12:45 or 1ish tonight but only leave like 2....... i'm sorry :/ .......
and yeah this summer i'm going to try to see as much of you as humanly possible for me........i wouldn't try going to surgery though........idk i think it's too soon to do anything yet.......i'm sorry.......
but uhmmm idk what's going down thursday yet but i'll let you know asap......i think i have church that night too......i have church every night at 7 but idk if i'm going to all of them.......
so yeah. i'm sorry i was starting my hyperventilation stage, i'm sorry you had to see me like that, i'm sorry im losing my ass, i'm sorry this is such a sucky situation.........
i know this sounds really depressing, but i'm not even in a bad mood, hahah......i'm just realizing all the stuff that's being stupid lately. ah well. on the bright side, i've been having wonderous dreams lately that don't involve stress. :D
I LOVE YOU
LOVE
your angel ;)
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