but yeah i told people the tailbone thing too in 7th grade.........bc at first that was what i thought it was, because i did fall on it....and then the doctor didn't even really know.....she put me on Augmentin and it went away, and we thought it was over...
and when we went this time, the doctor said it kept getting worse, because i saw her twice, and when i was at the last appointment she called some surgeons and found this guy, who i saw that same day at 2:45.......he was supposed to fix it in his office but he said since he barely touched it and i almost jumped off the table he'd need to sedate me.....he knew i was in pain so he prescribed pain meds, and i took like 3 yesterday and i just took one an hour ago......
idk.....i'm starting to tell people what actually happened though.....i mean i have a bruise on the inside of my right arm from the damn IV, and you can't really have surgery on your tailbone.......not this minor, anyhow.....
but yeah.......i didnt tell people bc it's not normal........its just weird.....i wasnt supposed to have this at all, hannah told you that.......its in guys........specifically overweight ones......and im a skinny female...........and i'm 16.....the surgeon said it happens when you're older ish.......well not that much older, but still........he said it was really really uncommon......
but yeah i didnt want to tell people until i knew exactly what it was and how i got it........but i was born weird i guess :/......ah well.
please don't be mad at me.........and i mean i knew you wouldn't think i was weird.......but still.......i mean i don't care if people know now, just idk........its still weird.
sigh.
just don't be mad that i didn't tell you what was wrong, i didn't tell anyone else either.......until before surgery and i was having panic attacks about it.....
god, now that i think about it it HAD to have hurt more than i felt.......i mean he ripped open my skin, didn't he.......
but it mustve hurt a lot still.....3 novocaine shots and 2 shots of anesthesia and i was still crying........i also wasnt exactly in my right mind, but still......
but yeah. in the summer i have to get another surgery.......they have to remove that part of skin so it never happens again, because if i didn't then it would happen again....its recurring apparently, and every time it happens it branches off more things under my skin which makes it happen more apparently.....i mean its only happened twice, but if i didn't have the final excision then.........yeah......it would suck....
so i'm pretty scared about that, but i got through this one all right, and it doesn't even hurt that bad.....
just.......i'm sorry i felt like i had to lie...........please don't be mad at me........... :(
but yeah i told people the tailbone thing too in 7th grade.........bc at first that was what i thought it was, because i did fall on it....and then the doctor didn't even really know.....she put me on Augmentin and it went away, and we thought it was over...
and when we went this time, the doctor said it kept getting worse, because i saw her twice, and when i was at the last appointment she called some surgeons and found this guy, who i saw that same day at 2:45.......he was supposed to fix it in his office but he said since he barely touched it and i almost jumped off the table he'd need to sedate me.....he knew i was in pain so he prescribed pain meds, and i took like 3 yesterday and i just took one an hour ago......
idk.....i'm starting to tell people what actually happened though.....i mean i have a bruise on the inside of my right arm from the damn IV, and you can't really have surgery on your tailbone.......not this minor, anyhow.....
but yeah.......i didnt tell people bc it's not normal........its just weird.....i wasnt supposed to have this at all, hannah told you that.......its in guys........specifically overweight ones......and im a skinny female...........and i'm 16.....the surgeon said it happens when you're older ish.......well not that much older, but still........he said it was really really uncommon......
but yeah i didnt want to tell people until i knew exactly what it was and how i got it........but i was born weird i guess :/......ah well.
please don't be mad at me.........and i mean i knew you wouldn't think i was weird.......but still.......i mean i don't care if people know now, just idk........its still weird.
sigh.
just don't be mad that i didn't tell you what was wrong, i didn't tell anyone else either.......until before surgery and i was having panic attacks about it.....
god, now that i think about it it HAD to have hurt more than i felt.......i mean he ripped open my skin, didn't he.......
but it mustve hurt a lot still.....3 novocaine shots and 2 shots of anesthesia and i was still crying........i also wasnt exactly in my right mind, but still......
but yeah. in the summer i have to get another surgery.......they have to remove that part of skin so it never happens again, because if i didn't then it would happen again....its recurring apparently, and every time it happens it branches off more things under my skin which makes it happen more apparently.....i mean its only happened twice, but if i didn't have the final excision then.........yeah......it would suck....
so i'm pretty scared about that, but i got through this one all right, and it doesn't even hurt that bad.....
just.......i'm sorry i felt like i had to lie...........please don't be mad at me........... :(
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