wow.
Im not even gunna write about today/tonight.
i just got off the phone with Hank though. wow.
we didnt yell at each other once. we werent mean to each other.
nothing. it was fine. we just talked. and i just let him explain everything.
hes like..
hank- caitlin do u really think i hate you.
me- yeah i do.
hank-why?
me- because you tell me all the time.
hank- you know i dont mean that.
me- then dont say it.
hank- i know. you say things you dont mean too.
me- yeah well but not nearly as harsh and mean as you say
hank- caitlin. i still care about you. im not gunna hate you. im not saying get out of my life because i hate you. im saying it because its the beest. dont you think?
me- yeah sure.
hank- im serious caitlin, is fighting every other day worth it?
me- nope.
hank- yeah well then its not worth it, you dont need me caitlin.
me- yes i do.
hank- no you dont, and you have to realize that. im not gunna be an asshole to you. im not gunna ignore you. ill still say hey to you at church and stuff.. ill still call you up and see if you want to hang out. its not going to be the same as before but how could it be? im leaving at the end of the month for the marines caitlin, what are you gunna do?
me- wow.
hank- what?
me- i just didnt know that you acually cared enough to sit here and have a conversation with me abotu whats going on without yelling at me and telling me im stupid.
thats all i remember. but wow. i just started cryin on the phone and ugh. i dont know.
i guess he's right though.
i have a soccer meeting after school tomorrow. and i need to catch up in all my classes. im not fucking up this year.
i just got off the phone with Hank though. wow.
we didnt yell at each other once. we werent mean to each other.
nothing. it was fine. we just talked. and i just let him explain everything.
hes like..
hank- caitlin do u really think i hate you.
me- yeah i do.
hank-why?
me- because you tell me all the time.
hank- you know i dont mean that.
me- then dont say it.
hank- i know. you say things you dont mean too.
me- yeah well but not nearly as harsh and mean as you say
hank- caitlin. i still care about you. im not gunna hate you. im not saying get out of my life because i hate you. im saying it because its the beest. dont you think?
me- yeah sure.
hank- im serious caitlin, is fighting every other day worth it?
me- nope.
hank- yeah well then its not worth it, you dont need me caitlin.
me- yes i do.
hank- no you dont, and you have to realize that. im not gunna be an asshole to you. im not gunna ignore you. ill still say hey to you at church and stuff.. ill still call you up and see if you want to hang out. its not going to be the same as before but how could it be? im leaving at the end of the month for the marines caitlin, what are you gunna do?
me- wow.
hank- what?
me- i just didnt know that you acually cared enough to sit here and have a conversation with me abotu whats going on without yelling at me and telling me im stupid.
thats all i remember. but wow. i just started cryin on the phone and ugh. i dont know.
i guess he's right though.
i have a soccer meeting after school tomorrow. and i need to catch up in all my classes. im not fucking up this year.