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finally a breakthrough on the artwork attempts for the husband's forthcoming EP, thank god.
otherwise the drama continues to unfold with the work situations. in that the less desirable one (in terms of creativity, re: lack thereof) tempted me with the money. oh, the money. but i have had some revelations today- many concerning my potential for sanity and my desire to have a career which i actually choose and i think it's brought me back full circle to the aethestically repulsive publication. i'll see how i feel in the morning.
last night i literally could not sleep and laid awake wide eyed at the revelation that selling out to the corporate bullshit only gets me as much money as freelancing would if i actually freelanced year round. and whatever whatever whatever. everyone seems to know it would be better and i would not be happy.
i am not even making sense.
ended up going into work all week afterall despite future lung cancers. goodnight.
otherwise the drama continues to unfold with the work situations. in that the less desirable one (in terms of creativity, re: lack thereof) tempted me with the money. oh, the money. but i have had some revelations today- many concerning my potential for sanity and my desire to have a career which i actually choose and i think it's brought me back full circle to the aethestically repulsive publication. i'll see how i feel in the morning.
last night i literally could not sleep and laid awake wide eyed at the revelation that selling out to the corporate bullshit only gets me as much money as freelancing would if i actually freelanced year round. and whatever whatever whatever. everyone seems to know it would be better and i would not be happy.
i am not even making sense.
ended up going into work all week afterall despite future lung cancers. goodnight.