I keep this little memory of you. I see you in my mind when I need to.

[babyabe]

So I was wrong about the four months thing. I saw Matt today. Not on the street corner like last Tuesday. I would have been ready for that. I would have been prepared to be sociable and friendly and charming. No, it didn’t come when I was expecting it. It came about half an hour later. The thought of seeing him was the farthest thing from my mind. I was sitting in the computer lab of Damen, listening to music and writing an email, and he walked in. And where was the only functioning computer located? Right next to me. I couldn’t talk to him. When he walked in I was clearly involved in something. I was obviously concentrating and typing like it was going out of style. I had my headphones on and it would have just been awkward to take them off. He gave no indication that he wanted to talk. Would he have talked if I hadn’t been listening to music? None of this matters. He has a girlfriend. Why do I torture myself? Why can’t I just get over this?

Happy 20th Birthday, Bonji!