Relief has come over me ya'll...
Wow- Sunday was my last update- not a whole lot has really happened, I found out yesterday Joe was talking shit behind my back. It's just funny who I heard it from...
So, today in 6th period, I guess a couple of guys were "drooling all over me" (according to Joe) so he got pissed and started ranting and raving about how jealous he gets ya-da-ya-da-ya-da. I lost it and said, "So you're going to get mad at me for something small as hell like always, FUCK THIS." and I proceeded to keep walking out of the school. Then I felt bad b/c Robin told me she knew Joe was going with Steven too, but I was pissed and said no to getting a ride from her. So I get home and I'm just LIVID, well I go to the bathroom and I come out and Jacob and Tyler are sitting in my living room with the biggest smiles on their faces. I told them what happened with Joe and I decided I don't need to feel like shit anymore. So I called Joe and I told him that it was my turn to say Fuck it and he said ok and I told him I'm tired of him getting mad about stupid BS all the time and I don't want to fix it anymore and he said ok and I pretty much hung up on him. Granted, I am still attatched to Joe for numerous reasons, but until he proves to me that he really does care about me and him fixing this, I'm done. I hate being un-happy. Honestly, I don't think Joe and I will work this out. I feel relieved but in one way it wasn't what I wanted. But I look at it as "it had to be done". Like I've said before "Everything will be ok in the end, if it isn't ok, it just isn't the end." --- I'm out tho ladies and gents, I have to update some sheez.- Love Ceej
So, today in 6th period, I guess a couple of guys were "drooling all over me" (according to Joe) so he got pissed and started ranting and raving about how jealous he gets ya-da-ya-da-ya-da. I lost it and said, "So you're going to get mad at me for something small as hell like always, FUCK THIS." and I proceeded to keep walking out of the school. Then I felt bad b/c Robin told me she knew Joe was going with Steven too, but I was pissed and said no to getting a ride from her. So I get home and I'm just LIVID, well I go to the bathroom and I come out and Jacob and Tyler are sitting in my living room with the biggest smiles on their faces. I told them what happened with Joe and I decided I don't need to feel like shit anymore. So I called Joe and I told him that it was my turn to say Fuck it and he said ok and I told him I'm tired of him getting mad about stupid BS all the time and I don't want to fix it anymore and he said ok and I pretty much hung up on him. Granted, I am still attatched to Joe for numerous reasons, but until he proves to me that he really does care about me and him fixing this, I'm done. I hate being un-happy. Honestly, I don't think Joe and I will work this out. I feel relieved but in one way it wasn't what I wanted. But I look at it as "it had to be done". Like I've said before "Everything will be ok in the end, if it isn't ok, it just isn't the end." --- I'm out tho ladies and gents, I have to update some sheez.- Love Ceej