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So, I haven't writen in here since my PaPa passed away. Right, so life has just kinda gone down hill even more since then. My household is full of angry people who argue all the time. I'm sick of the fighting and the crying, I'm sick of it all. It's mostly my mom and me, which isn't that unusual to be the issue, but it's even more then ever.
My great grandma((my GGMa)) isn't doing well either. We're finally getting her out of the nursing home, and taking her home. The thing is, we're doing it so she can pass away happier. She will be around her things and at home. It's kinda nice to know that she'll be happier, but this still all kinda sucks. I don't think that I can deal with loosing someone else in my family at the time being.
Next, my mom was in the hospital for a week. The kept "blacking" out at work. The thing is, the whole time that she was in the hospital, no one could find anything wrong with her. They told her that they think that it's just a new kind of migrane, but if that's true, then she isn't aloud to drive anymore, and they don't want her to even work with this kind of problem. So, if this is the real problem, then we're screwed!
So, basically, I'm loosing it real bad lately! I also found out that tomorrow i have to get some tests done and then I'm getting surgery. I'm completely freaked out about this. The tests don't bother me at all, I've had so many done already, but thinking of surgery completely scares the crap out of me. Then, I'm starting to freak out about school. I know that they can't truely fail me as long as I do some of my work because of the thingy that I'm on, but I'm freaking out now about my future with my education. I don't know what to do anymore!
So, I know the one true guy for me, but it's so hard for me. I've been through so much with him and so many fights, and we still love eachother, and they can't break us apart. How am I supposed to do this though with him living in Texas. Tyler is that guy for me and I know it. Our families even know it! So what am I supposed to do? I want to go see him for a little while, but I don't think that I can. It kills me knowing how hard this is! Who knows anymore! I'll write more later!
My great grandma((my GGMa)) isn't doing well either. We're finally getting her out of the nursing home, and taking her home. The thing is, we're doing it so she can pass away happier. She will be around her things and at home. It's kinda nice to know that she'll be happier, but this still all kinda sucks. I don't think that I can deal with loosing someone else in my family at the time being.
Next, my mom was in the hospital for a week. The kept "blacking" out at work. The thing is, the whole time that she was in the hospital, no one could find anything wrong with her. They told her that they think that it's just a new kind of migrane, but if that's true, then she isn't aloud to drive anymore, and they don't want her to even work with this kind of problem. So, if this is the real problem, then we're screwed!
So, basically, I'm loosing it real bad lately! I also found out that tomorrow i have to get some tests done and then I'm getting surgery. I'm completely freaked out about this. The tests don't bother me at all, I've had so many done already, but thinking of surgery completely scares the crap out of me. Then, I'm starting to freak out about school. I know that they can't truely fail me as long as I do some of my work because of the thingy that I'm on, but I'm freaking out now about my future with my education. I don't know what to do anymore!
So, I know the one true guy for me, but it's so hard for me. I've been through so much with him and so many fights, and we still love eachother, and they can't break us apart. How am I supposed to do this though with him living in Texas. Tyler is that guy for me and I know it. Our families even know it! So what am I supposed to do? I want to go see him for a little while, but I don't think that I can. It kills me knowing how hard this is! Who knows anymore! I'll write more later!