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so last night i hung out with mindi. she was having a get together at her house. her little sister ashley showed up after a while. which was kewl. it was good to see them and i havn't seen ashley since thanksgiving. those two girls are looking forward to having steve home almost as much as i am. after a while of drinking and whatnot ashley got onto the subject of tab. i told her not to even start with me becuase that girl broke my heart for about six months for thinking that those two were married. ashley proceeded to tell me that steve and tab were married. oh i felt like i was stabbed in the heart. i love steve and i trust him with everything i have inside of me but tab is the kicker. tab is what broke my heart before and tab is what worries me. she always will. so i was really upset about it. i tried to call him last night but he was with CJ and i didn't want to talk to him while he was with his buddies. so i made him promise to call me before i went to work. well i called him this morning and talked to him about it and he told me that none of it is true. i didn't believe it but there's still that doubt when it comes to tab because he is so closed about her, he has never wanted to talk to me about her, even when they were together. our relationship is so stressful sometimes and it freaks me out. i don't like bullshit and i don't want it in a personal relationship. people keep trying to push it on us. first shit goes around town about me seeing somebody else and then the stuff about steve being married. that is just too much drama for me. i don't want to fight with him and i don't want to ever feel like i can't trust him. i love him and he should be the person that i can count on first.