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Today was a bad day.
I got up early. And got ready.
I left around 10:00 to go to Roberta's. I took 4 pair of pants up.
Mom and I got in a huge fight, because shes a neat freak.
I totally broke down.
All this while, I've been holding everything in around her, because she don't give a shit about me. Its all about the yelling with her.
Not once has she cared about my feelings.
I'm down and upset, I'm told to shut up. And I get a door slammed.
Never was she a "mom material" I've wanted.
Anyways..
She told me I couldn't go anywhere, but that didn't stop me!
I walked.
Half way to Mahone Bay, dad came along and picked me up and drove me to Clariece and Kevin's.
I pretty much bawled the whole way down.
Poor guy had to go home and listen to mom chew about picking me up.
I'm sorry but I couldn't stay home with her.
I spent the day at Clarieces with her. It was nice. Just to bitch about everything.
We went to the store. And to Tim's... Mmm Coffee.
Dominique and Clariece got into it. It made me feel really horrible, because I left mad at my mom. (Mind you, I'm still mad!)
After she took her medication, Dominique calmed down.
Clariece and I took her to her room and made cards to cheer her up whenever shes down.
Clariece left the room for a few minutes, and Dominique totally broke down. I felt so bad.
So I took her for a walk for about 30 minutes, and talked to her about her problems, and told her no matter how mad Clariece gets at her, she still loves her..
(Should've made me think, shouldn't have it?)
But it didn't. No one understands me and my moms relationship. We've never talked about anything personal. We hardly even talk. If we do, its usually about work, or something my dad did that made us laugh.
Never have we sat down and talked together, EVER. In 18 years.
We got back from our walk, and had supper. Dominque apolgized to her mom and hugged her and told her she loved her.
Then I talked with Clariece and Kevin about some of the things Dominique wanted to change and some things she was upset over.
They agreed to help.
After supper, the kids had their baths and we got them ready for bed.
For quiet time, Dominique drew me a picture. Its really cute! =)
Kevin, Clariece and I played UNO for about 2 hours, then I came home.
Mom and I still haven't talked, and now shes in bed. I'm not giving in this time. Lately I don't give in for any bullshit. I've really changed.. To stand up for myself. Alot more.
Now I've been informed that my homemade cookies aren't good enough to outbeat WEDNESDAYS Wal-Mart cookies.. LoL!
Well thats all for now.