I'm not a slave to a god that doesn't exist
Hello y'all,
I felt like an update into my life was necissary. The last entry left all you on the edges of your seats, I'm sure. Well, here goes: right after I got finished writing the last entry, Mike got online and we got a chance to talk. It was odd, cuz we didn't break up, but he was like "I love you, but I'm not in love with you. i just think there's a goth girl out there waiting for me". I got really depressed, and at about 5:00 in the morning I couldn't go back to sleep cuz I was mad and sad and a bunch of other emotions and I got out a razor blade and made a few cuts on my arm, but they weren't deep cuz my skin is unpenetrable I guess. nothing can make me bleed. anyways, I went back to sleep and got up at 7:20 feeling a lot better. I went to school and showed Mike and everyone what I did to my arm. It made Mike sad cuz he felt responsible, and everyone else didn't really seem to care cuz I didn't bleed. Then I wrote Mike a 3 page long letter and gave it to him at lunch cuz he was there cuz he had counciling and when it got done his parents said he didn't have to go back to school. Cigi also gave him a letter pretty much saying that he needed to get over her and move on cuz she hated that he was still hooked on her, which isn't the case cuz Mike's been thinking of his and my relationship for the past two weeks and not about Cigi. So that's pretty much all the drama that went on on Thursday.
Friday was a good day. I tried for the second time to get my learner's permit, but yet again failed since I didn't have the paper that said I attended school regularly. So I hung out at Mike's house for a while. Then I went to my Driver's Education meeting at 7:00pm, and that lasted about an hour and a half. After that was done, my mom and I picked up Mike and went to dinner with my brother and his friend. That was fun, until we got on the topic of politics. And Mike got mad at himself because he said he was being a bad soldier for not sticking up for President Bush. We all tried to make him feel better by saying that he wasn't being a bad soldier, and that we all have our times where we're unable to defend what we believe in. So after dinner Mike and I went back to his house and had fun with some gummy handcuffs ;);)
I left his house at about 3:00am. then I didn't fall asleep until like 4:30am. Since Mike was busy at an auction all day, I didn't feel like doing anything except for sleep, so I slept for 16 hours. Then at noon, my mom, brother, and his friend left for Salt Lake City to celebrate my cousin's birthday. So I had the house to myself. I didn't wake up until 8:00pm, and when I did wake up, I had to clean out the hot tub cuz it got filthy when my friends were over for my birthday party. That took about an hour and a half to two hours. When I got done, I called Mike to tell him the plans for today. I found out that he got done with the auction at about 3:00pm and couldn't find my number to call me. but oh well, I wouldn't have answered anyways cuz I was sleeping. But we did miss a chance to have the house all to our selves for a whole day. Oh well, you can't change the past.
Today, we(Mike, my mom, and I) went to Idaho Falls. Mike and I went to the Hot Topic while my mom searched around town for a subwoofer for our surround sound. Mike and I had fun lookin at all the stuff. Oh, I almost forgot... Mike and I were talkin on the phone before we left, and he told me about an email he had written me this morning that said that he's slowly but surely beginning to feel in love with me. he was like, "It's like I love you but I'm not in love with you for like a second, then all of a sudden I love you and I'm In Love with you another second". and he's been feeling like this for the past two days. So our trip to I.F. was much sweeter ^^. Then we got back at like 6:00pm, and we dropped Mike off at his house, and I wanted to stay with him and watch fifth element, but my mom wouldn't let me cuz it was a school night. Oh well. Mike and I might go see Godsend on friday(which just so happens to be our one month anniversary ^^).
Umm, I can't think of anything else at the moment.
To all my fellow Gothhalo's and Juggalo's:
Peace Out (War In)
And to Mike:
I Love You Babe
Baby Goth
I felt like an update into my life was necissary. The last entry left all you on the edges of your seats, I'm sure. Well, here goes: right after I got finished writing the last entry, Mike got online and we got a chance to talk. It was odd, cuz we didn't break up, but he was like "I love you, but I'm not in love with you. i just think there's a goth girl out there waiting for me". I got really depressed, and at about 5:00 in the morning I couldn't go back to sleep cuz I was mad and sad and a bunch of other emotions and I got out a razor blade and made a few cuts on my arm, but they weren't deep cuz my skin is unpenetrable I guess. nothing can make me bleed. anyways, I went back to sleep and got up at 7:20 feeling a lot better. I went to school and showed Mike and everyone what I did to my arm. It made Mike sad cuz he felt responsible, and everyone else didn't really seem to care cuz I didn't bleed. Then I wrote Mike a 3 page long letter and gave it to him at lunch cuz he was there cuz he had counciling and when it got done his parents said he didn't have to go back to school. Cigi also gave him a letter pretty much saying that he needed to get over her and move on cuz she hated that he was still hooked on her, which isn't the case cuz Mike's been thinking of his and my relationship for the past two weeks and not about Cigi. So that's pretty much all the drama that went on on Thursday.
Friday was a good day. I tried for the second time to get my learner's permit, but yet again failed since I didn't have the paper that said I attended school regularly. So I hung out at Mike's house for a while. Then I went to my Driver's Education meeting at 7:00pm, and that lasted about an hour and a half. After that was done, my mom and I picked up Mike and went to dinner with my brother and his friend. That was fun, until we got on the topic of politics. And Mike got mad at himself because he said he was being a bad soldier for not sticking up for President Bush. We all tried to make him feel better by saying that he wasn't being a bad soldier, and that we all have our times where we're unable to defend what we believe in. So after dinner Mike and I went back to his house and had fun with some gummy handcuffs ;);)
I left his house at about 3:00am. then I didn't fall asleep until like 4:30am. Since Mike was busy at an auction all day, I didn't feel like doing anything except for sleep, so I slept for 16 hours. Then at noon, my mom, brother, and his friend left for Salt Lake City to celebrate my cousin's birthday. So I had the house to myself. I didn't wake up until 8:00pm, and when I did wake up, I had to clean out the hot tub cuz it got filthy when my friends were over for my birthday party. That took about an hour and a half to two hours. When I got done, I called Mike to tell him the plans for today. I found out that he got done with the auction at about 3:00pm and couldn't find my number to call me. but oh well, I wouldn't have answered anyways cuz I was sleeping. But we did miss a chance to have the house all to our selves for a whole day. Oh well, you can't change the past.
Today, we(Mike, my mom, and I) went to Idaho Falls. Mike and I went to the Hot Topic while my mom searched around town for a subwoofer for our surround sound. Mike and I had fun lookin at all the stuff. Oh, I almost forgot... Mike and I were talkin on the phone before we left, and he told me about an email he had written me this morning that said that he's slowly but surely beginning to feel in love with me. he was like, "It's like I love you but I'm not in love with you for like a second, then all of a sudden I love you and I'm In Love with you another second". and he's been feeling like this for the past two days. So our trip to I.F. was much sweeter ^^. Then we got back at like 6:00pm, and we dropped Mike off at his house, and I wanted to stay with him and watch fifth element, but my mom wouldn't let me cuz it was a school night. Oh well. Mike and I might go see Godsend on friday(which just so happens to be our one month anniversary ^^).
Umm, I can't think of anything else at the moment.
To all my fellow Gothhalo's and Juggalo's:
Peace Out (War In)
And to Mike:
I Love You Babe
Baby Goth