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How long till this all disappears? Why do I have to wait on you? I want someone else, a I want a new love and a new life and I want you to FUCK OFF. Even when I taste someone else's lips, they never taste as sweet. Even faced with a newer model, a more handsome prospect, I only have butterflies for you. I hate you for this, for involving me. I hate you because I love you too much. Maybe if I was as emotionally unattached as you it would be possible for me to trust. To let go. I believe in God's Plan and I believe in true, unconditional love, and I believe one serves the other. If it is not meant to be we are powerless to stop it. Even so, sometimes I wish you would lie to me. Hold me and tell me you love me with all your heart, more than anyone, now and forever. Forever is a very long time. I hope you do find someone else, but quickly, so I won't die so slowly inside. Or, I wish my lungs would fill with blood. I wish my entire body would be flooded with it, right up to my eyelids, so they'd never have to look into yours again and know that I meant nothing.
But all I really want is for you to wrap your arms around me and tell me it's alright, and that everything will be okay.
There's never a winner in this game.
But all I really want is for you to wrap your arms around me and tell me it's alright, and that everything will be okay.
There's never a winner in this game.