I HAVE MOVED!
I have successfully moved to 
sweetestdespair so please feel free to join me over there.
and the following is a blurb that I think you all should hear
I am a despair. But not really any more. There is only so much manic (which I have and will always be) I can apparently take. There are many differences that you may find amusing about my journal. It's not really filled with the classic despair you all know and love, but rather I have found that I am changing. For the better I hope. I am more in control of things than I ever had been in the past. I am a lot more mature then I was in the past. I am more of an Ophelia than a despair anymore. I really am. I dress more like normal people, I act much, much more mature for the most part. And the scariest thing after all that is that I'm biting my lip as I type this and glancing around guiltily* I am beginning to understand things that I never did before. I find myself no longer looking for a person (I say this very loosely because love is universal) to spend the rest of my existence with, because all of the sudden I am okay without having the entrapments of mind games. I think this is mostly do to the fact I recently found myself attempting to play with some one's mind, and found that I am really sick of the normal relationship. You can't really say that I do not enjoy the pleasures of flesh, because I am a Dragon therefor, love feeling skin on skin, but this happily ever-after that everyone is stuck in is not a real thing that is attainable.... For me. And it is kind of scary that I'm stuck with. I can no longer dream what my future will be. I am living it. So as you ponder away at what sort of person's journal you are thinking of reading, just know that I really am someone else. I am constantly changing every second of every day. So the lonely baby girl who existed solely for others is simply not me. I am an adult now, and I try to conduct myself in that manor. That is not to say that I will not constantly be whining and screaming. Or writing every single thing down in this journal that happens to me. And at times I might seem overly sad or upset but, know that you don't have to do inane things like comment about it, because I know me and I can comfort myself. I have for years. So if you want to make your presence known that is fine. But I have a lot of things to work out. And they all go in here. So If you think I'm looking for pity or someone to feel sorry for me, I am not anymore. I am also on the Pisces/Aries cusp so I am unpredictable to say the least. And this journal will be friends only so if for some reason after reading this you wish to be added then I will add you. Okay. I am done ranting. You may go back to your regular scheduled programing.
sweetestdespair so please feel free to join me over there.
and the following is a blurb that I think you all should hear
I am a despair. But not really any more. There is only so much manic (which I have and will always be) I can apparently take. There are many differences that you may find amusing about my journal. It's not really filled with the classic despair you all know and love, but rather I have found that I am changing. For the better I hope. I am more in control of things than I ever had been in the past. I am a lot more mature then I was in the past. I am more of an Ophelia than a despair anymore. I really am. I dress more like normal people, I act much, much more mature for the most part. And the scariest thing after all that is that I'm biting my lip as I type this and glancing around guiltily* I am beginning to understand things that I never did before. I find myself no longer looking for a person (I say this very loosely because love is universal) to spend the rest of my existence with, because all of the sudden I am okay without having the entrapments of mind games. I think this is mostly do to the fact I recently found myself attempting to play with some one's mind, and found that I am really sick of the normal relationship. You can't really say that I do not enjoy the pleasures of flesh, because I am a Dragon therefor, love feeling skin on skin, but this happily ever-after that everyone is stuck in is not a real thing that is attainable.... For me. And it is kind of scary that I'm stuck with. I can no longer dream what my future will be. I am living it. So as you ponder away at what sort of person's journal you are thinking of reading, just know that I really am someone else. I am constantly changing every second of every day. So the lonely baby girl who existed solely for others is simply not me. I am an adult now, and I try to conduct myself in that manor. That is not to say that I will not constantly be whining and screaming. Or writing every single thing down in this journal that happens to me. And at times I might seem overly sad or upset but, know that you don't have to do inane things like comment about it, because I know me and I can comfort myself. I have for years. So if you want to make your presence known that is fine. But I have a lot of things to work out. And they all go in here. So If you think I'm looking for pity or someone to feel sorry for me, I am not anymore. I am also on the Pisces/Aries cusp so I am unpredictable to say the least. And this journal will be friends only so if for some reason after reading this you wish to be added then I will add you. Okay. I am done ranting. You may go back to your regular scheduled programing.