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I feel so naive right now.
I honestly had no idea that another human being could do that to someone they care about.
I have no idea who this person is, because the person I know would of never done that, so I therefore have been friends with someone who does'nt really exist.
I know what I want to do, and what I should do.
As Caitlin said, sometimes the hardest thing to do is block out emotion.
Lately that hasnt been very hard, practically second nature, but right now I am completely crushed.
I hate being so vulnerable. And I hate how I so willingly gave everything I had to give. I feel used and about to be taken advantage of with my readiness to forgive.
But I'm not going to let it happen.
I never have been one to take the easy way out.
I honestly had no idea that another human being could do that to someone they care about.
I have no idea who this person is, because the person I know would of never done that, so I therefore have been friends with someone who does'nt really exist.
I know what I want to do, and what I should do.
As Caitlin said, sometimes the hardest thing to do is block out emotion.
Lately that hasnt been very hard, practically second nature, but right now I am completely crushed.
I hate being so vulnerable. And I hate how I so willingly gave everything I had to give. I feel used and about to be taken advantage of with my readiness to forgive.
But I'm not going to let it happen.
I never have been one to take the easy way out.