GRRR
Well here we are yet again. Let's just start by saying that men who hit women need to be shot and then burried in a shallow grave. My ex boyfriend name Criag came over a couple of nights ago, drunk, and took a swing at me. I wasn't hurt too bad just the right side of my face was swollen. So who do I call to comfort me, Draco. Always him. He has always been there to do whatever I have needed in order to be sane and alive. For that I will always love him, but now I feel very used and disgarded. The girl he is with is wonderful and makes him happy. Great, for them. But the thing is I know how he feels about me, hell everyone does. Sometimes when we are alone just the two of us it feels like home for me. That I can be with him and just be me. The real me. I don't have that feeling with Monkey or with a lot of other people in my life. I always feel so up tight about being alone with them. So now I just feel like I have been used because he and I are so close that things could happen very easily. What I had planed was JayJ, Draco, Heather and I would get a hotel room and have A LOT OF FUN. But Heather wouldn't be fucking anyone but me because she has a boyfriend. When I asked Draco if he was still in he said that he wouldn't have done it anyways because of his girlfriend. Which hurt really bad to say the least. He doesn't seem to be thinking about her when he is bitting my neck and leaving HUGE hickies on me. But when a chance truely comes up he doesn't want to. He suddenly becomes a noble puppy and boyfriend. So it hurt. But JayJ, Heather and I went to shoot some pool which made me feel a little better. Anyways, I am really tired and I am going to get into bed. So good night for now.
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