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[babsbeauty]

Okay to start this off I found out today that I am pregnant again, so don't congradulate me yet. I am going tomarrow to see how far along I am. I have mixed feelings about this because of Monkey being gone and the other woman. He says they haven't spoken since we got married, yea right whatever. Oh and another wonderful thing happened to me. Yesterday I found out that a friend of mine, Slick, is also joining the army. I may have already said that. But everyone I love and care about and who I think care about me are leaving me. They are joining the military and I feel so alone. I feel like they wont come home to me and that I will be alone with my Pumpkin. I know that may seem selfish but for someone to love me as long as these people have beyond our first time in bed, is a lot to say. I've been used up and tossed around by guys so many times and for them to love me this long is a wonderful thing for me. So I will hold onto them as long as I can. Yea it maybe selfish but really ask me if I care. Save you the trouble I don't. I have waited and searched and be hurt to find people who love me, truely love me, is something I REFUSE to let go of. Anyways well I am going out with my friend Draco tonight to dinner, nothing big just steak and shake. Then I am coming home because I have to be up early tomarrow. Oh hey I am working on a new song. This is all I have so far:

If I had a song to sing
Would you even listen.
If I had words for you to know
Could you even listen?
Do you even remember us and how
We could make the day our own?
Have we gone so far from ourselves
That you can't remeber me?

So tell me how do I stand
With out your help
How can I walk
Without you next to me
Where do I run
When you are everywhere?

Let this be what it is
A memory of an old time.

Well that is all I have. I would like some feed back to know how it sounds. So tell me what you think and I would really apperciate honesty.

I gotta get ready for tonight

Babs