update
awww snap it's an update!!!
so it's been awhile since ye ol' bonder has updated. since my last update i had the opportunity to visit bowling green for a weekend and see some familiar faces. i really missed that crew and it was good to see everyone again. i hope i visit them a little sooner this time becasue that was the first time i visited BG in a hot minute.
i came home sunday and had work at 7 the next morning :( ..... i did indeed go to cville after work and hung out with lauren all day on monday. had some good times with her and as she said we had a good time doing what we do best and that is ABSOLUTELY NOTHING AT ALL!! we do accomplish things sometimes but we are easily satisfied with just laying around and doing nothing :) yesterday i had class and it suuuucked as always. math is confusing the stuff out of me and i really just want to give it up!!! no motivation here! went to work till 7 and lauren drove from cville to see me last night. we did absolutely nothing UNLESS you count watching lots of doug..haha maaaan i love some doug. WE love some doug. it just reminded me of being super young and laying around watching cartoons and what not. i remembered EVERY episode we watched. that show was very well done.....ive yet to find a cartoon to top it..its the FULL HOUSE of cartoons!!! we watched the xmas episode and im totally ready for christmas......at least i think.
now today. hmmm went to work at 9 and did nothing all day at work. talked to lauren and billy for about 2hrs of my 4hr work day. lauren seems down, confused, stressed, etc..... she dosent talk much about it but i dunno....i just feel like im holding her back. i hate that feeling more than anything.....im not dependant on anyone as of now...i've come to the realization that id be a happier person if i knew deep down that she was doing what made her happy as she could possibly be. yep that's how i really feel in my heart. i'm sure of NOTHING in my life right now....except the fact im only getting older....im mildly depressed today but i cant complain becasue i havent been depressed in a week or so. so one day out of about seven isnt bad. i'm "NORMAL" i swear to god i am.....other people feel this way...no need to worry! right? right? hey im not crying for any sympathy....im so much better off than a lot of people. ive experienced some things that some people could only dream of experiencing...ive got some of the best friends that you could possibly have....im pretty healthy....im comfortable with the person i am on the inside....i dont have MANY regrets.... seeee IM MR BRIGHT SIDE!!!!
i have put off studying for about 5hrs already....WOW what the heck. i spent the better part of an hr or so making lauren two cds. one is radio hits over the last 5yrs...and the other is songs that i like that make me think of her. sounds gay and stuff but i enjoyed the process of making these cds...it sounded better than studying and i enjoy listening to these songs so yeah. music is greatness.......can't get enough of it. well i guess that's all for now.....i think i want to be 11-13yrs old again....life was so much easier then. oh yes it was. deciding what to watch on tv or how to spend my afternoon or what i wanted for breakfast were the hardest decesions i had to make.
hmmm if only i knew then what i know now.......
so it's been awhile since ye ol' bonder has updated. since my last update i had the opportunity to visit bowling green for a weekend and see some familiar faces. i really missed that crew and it was good to see everyone again. i hope i visit them a little sooner this time becasue that was the first time i visited BG in a hot minute.
i came home sunday and had work at 7 the next morning :( ..... i did indeed go to cville after work and hung out with lauren all day on monday. had some good times with her and as she said we had a good time doing what we do best and that is ABSOLUTELY NOTHING AT ALL!! we do accomplish things sometimes but we are easily satisfied with just laying around and doing nothing :) yesterday i had class and it suuuucked as always. math is confusing the stuff out of me and i really just want to give it up!!! no motivation here! went to work till 7 and lauren drove from cville to see me last night. we did absolutely nothing UNLESS you count watching lots of doug..haha maaaan i love some doug. WE love some doug. it just reminded me of being super young and laying around watching cartoons and what not. i remembered EVERY episode we watched. that show was very well done.....ive yet to find a cartoon to top it..its the FULL HOUSE of cartoons!!! we watched the xmas episode and im totally ready for christmas......at least i think.
now today. hmmm went to work at 9 and did nothing all day at work. talked to lauren and billy for about 2hrs of my 4hr work day. lauren seems down, confused, stressed, etc..... she dosent talk much about it but i dunno....i just feel like im holding her back. i hate that feeling more than anything.....im not dependant on anyone as of now...i've come to the realization that id be a happier person if i knew deep down that she was doing what made her happy as she could possibly be. yep that's how i really feel in my heart. i'm sure of NOTHING in my life right now....except the fact im only getting older....im mildly depressed today but i cant complain becasue i havent been depressed in a week or so. so one day out of about seven isnt bad. i'm "NORMAL" i swear to god i am.....other people feel this way...no need to worry! right? right? hey im not crying for any sympathy....im so much better off than a lot of people. ive experienced some things that some people could only dream of experiencing...ive got some of the best friends that you could possibly have....im pretty healthy....im comfortable with the person i am on the inside....i dont have MANY regrets.... seeee IM MR BRIGHT SIDE!!!!
i have put off studying for about 5hrs already....WOW what the heck. i spent the better part of an hr or so making lauren two cds. one is radio hits over the last 5yrs...and the other is songs that i like that make me think of her. sounds gay and stuff but i enjoyed the process of making these cds...it sounded better than studying and i enjoy listening to these songs so yeah. music is greatness.......can't get enough of it. well i guess that's all for now.....i think i want to be 11-13yrs old again....life was so much easier then. oh yes it was. deciding what to watch on tv or how to spend my afternoon or what i wanted for breakfast were the hardest decesions i had to make.
hmmm if only i knew then what i know now.......