Beautiful
Some weeks ago, I was having the worst day possible, and this girl I know to a certain degree comes up to me in class. She asks if she can tell me something, and that I dont' have to be offended or anything. And of course, seeing as I have a piss poor day, the first thought that comes to mind is' Oh crap, what's wrong now?'. I answered a little unsure, ehhm... okay. I think she sensed the unsureness or something, 'cause she keps repeting not to take it in the wrong way, and as she talk I get more and more pannicked, what the hell is it?? And finally I nod, she leans in so only I can hear and say:
"You're beautiful"
I have never been so flabbergasted in my whole life, it was bizarre. I have been teased from first through tenth grade, and no one has ever told me i look pretty, except for weddings and such. And then this girl that I have talked to maybe two times comes up to me and says I'm beautiful. i was in heaven that day. But of course after a few days, the bliss kind of wear of, and I don't believe her any more. I am quite a large girl, I have always had problems with my weight due to a sickness, and my bonestructure is rather large, so I will never be petit.
Then, a couple of weeks later, i talk to another friend of mine, she had known me for a year and a half, and it's a rather serius talk, and the whole loosing weight thing comes up. The shock in my friends' face cought me totally of guard. she couldn't believe that I thought I needed to loose weight. And then it occurs to me; the only people ever saying I need to loose weight is my mum (and my little brother, but he's a pain in the #¤%¤#) and my doctor.
Two days ago the same girl suddenly, out of the blue, tells me that I'm pretty. And when she find out that i don't hear that to much, the shocked face was there again, and i get just as flabbegasted.
Then i tell my mum about these three events, she says: Yes, you are quite the pretty girl, you're face is beautiful, and when you walk with a good posture, you are quite beautiful."
What is it that they see? 'Cause I don't see it. But most of all, why in the bloody blazes has my mum shut up about that for so many years. I was near destruction in school becasue I was teased becasue of my looks, why in the world wouldn't she tell me then, when I needed it???
"You're beautiful"
I have never been so flabbergasted in my whole life, it was bizarre. I have been teased from first through tenth grade, and no one has ever told me i look pretty, except for weddings and such. And then this girl that I have talked to maybe two times comes up to me and says I'm beautiful. i was in heaven that day. But of course after a few days, the bliss kind of wear of, and I don't believe her any more. I am quite a large girl, I have always had problems with my weight due to a sickness, and my bonestructure is rather large, so I will never be petit.
Then, a couple of weeks later, i talk to another friend of mine, she had known me for a year and a half, and it's a rather serius talk, and the whole loosing weight thing comes up. The shock in my friends' face cought me totally of guard. she couldn't believe that I thought I needed to loose weight. And then it occurs to me; the only people ever saying I need to loose weight is my mum (and my little brother, but he's a pain in the #¤%¤#) and my doctor.
Two days ago the same girl suddenly, out of the blue, tells me that I'm pretty. And when she find out that i don't hear that to much, the shocked face was there again, and i get just as flabbegasted.
Then i tell my mum about these three events, she says: Yes, you are quite the pretty girl, you're face is beautiful, and when you walk with a good posture, you are quite beautiful."
What is it that they see? 'Cause I don't see it. But most of all, why in the bloody blazes has my mum shut up about that for so many years. I was near destruction in school becasue I was teased becasue of my looks, why in the world wouldn't she tell me then, when I needed it???