boys
i have many sudes to me and one of those is that a love to be loved by others. i think that why i can't let go. i mean i do love dustin but i'm just not sure if i want to spend the rest of my life with him ya know. i mean is there such thing as true love? i'm just not sure anymore. i make myself so many promises and then end up breaking all of them. like there is this other force in my life that is telling me that its not rihght to make promises and just ro go with the flow. i am a strong beliver in the fact that everything happens for a reason but i still have yet to find out why i have two guys in my life and i'm head over heels for one of them and not the other. i mean micheal is great but maybe i really don't need to have a guy like him as more than a friend. he gave me flowers yesterday! they were beutiful! 2 dozen! well hope i can get myself out of this slump. until next time