still dying
well im still dying but thats besides the point
this was a line in my cousins profile-life was sooo much easier when boys had cooties..
and like well duh i no longer think boys have cooties, i realised they had penises and that i liked them alot...but...like there was a time when i thought boys were stupid, i dunno if i ever believed in the cootie idea...actually i dont think i did. in preschool i hated boys and hit them. in kindergarden i chased them with my friend jessica and kissed them like crazy, especially a boy named anthony, of course the day he kissed me, like it was shocking. then i grew up a lil and went to 1st grade where i stopped being violent and kissraping boys. like in 1st grade my best friend was teddy and i saw nothing wrong with that. i wasnt informed till much later, perhaps second grade that girlies and boyies arent supposed to be best biffles. apparently boys were supposed to play with boys and girls were supposed to play with girls. and sadly i was hooked into this idea for quite some time. i never was like " boys have a disease and if they touch you, you get it" but i just kind of ignored their exsistense for a few yrs. i remember these kids in 5th grade were supposedly going out and i was like " why on earth would you want to do that". i wouldnt really be intrested, like in the actual sense till yrs later. i mite have found an interest in boys sooner, but i didnt want to actually spend time with them. like i saw no reason in it. boys didnt want to go and do the same things i wanted to, so forget them. but b4 an intrest of the attraction persaution could occur, i became friends with evan. evan was the 1st boy who i actually wanted to spend time with. cuz like he wasnt into stupid things that boys were into at the time. me and him did the awesomest shit. but i must say evan started a problem, one that occurs in every girls life, he started me on the path to an actual intrest in boys, not the dating part, but the interest. i sooo developed a crush on evan, which of course he rejected, which i must say i guess was a good thing, or i dont think me and him would still be connected by the brain waves today. crushes and boy crazyness started in about oh 8th grade. always crushes on unreachable boys, why, cuz thats wut i did, maybe on purpose on sum subconcious level, that way i never actually had to deal with a real boy situation. also i had no emotion link to the ideas of boys as of yet, well except of course evan who i was totlly in love with but on sum odd platonic level. 9th grade started sum intrest in dating. like my interest was " i wanna hang out with a boy with kisses" my obsession with kissing has always been there and still is, poor shaun, i always kiss-harass him, ans sadly his interest in kissing is only there sometimes. but n e who. yeah 9th grade started the dating issue, which was left to wait till 10th grade. then i dated phil. which lasted very briefly and didnt go well. unexperienced and self hating me just did not know wut to do. that ended. AND THEN...came shaun ham. and there is still shaun ham. with him, i realised wut dating actually is and the joy of a boy( that sounds very lame). like i dunno, i still dont like other boys too much thou lol. i still have evan as my biffle, and have shaun as my...bestfriendy/lover/soulmate/everything thing. i ont know wut id do without him, and thats a wonderful feeling. he is the 1st and only person i love in that romantic and often lustful way. i hate being touched, and with shaun, i crave it, that was the issue that made me realise that damn this boy is special...lets see where me and shaun goes...thats were i am on boys and thats wut has happened in the life of casssie when it comes to the male species.
lets hope however that shaun does not turn into a werewolf like zombie who i have to kill only to then discover i am pregnant with him baby( COPYRIGHTED IDEA)
this was a line in my cousins profile-life was sooo much easier when boys had cooties..
and like well duh i no longer think boys have cooties, i realised they had penises and that i liked them alot...but...like there was a time when i thought boys were stupid, i dunno if i ever believed in the cootie idea...actually i dont think i did. in preschool i hated boys and hit them. in kindergarden i chased them with my friend jessica and kissed them like crazy, especially a boy named anthony, of course the day he kissed me, like it was shocking. then i grew up a lil and went to 1st grade where i stopped being violent and kissraping boys. like in 1st grade my best friend was teddy and i saw nothing wrong with that. i wasnt informed till much later, perhaps second grade that girlies and boyies arent supposed to be best biffles. apparently boys were supposed to play with boys and girls were supposed to play with girls. and sadly i was hooked into this idea for quite some time. i never was like " boys have a disease and if they touch you, you get it" but i just kind of ignored their exsistense for a few yrs. i remember these kids in 5th grade were supposedly going out and i was like " why on earth would you want to do that". i wouldnt really be intrested, like in the actual sense till yrs later. i mite have found an interest in boys sooner, but i didnt want to actually spend time with them. like i saw no reason in it. boys didnt want to go and do the same things i wanted to, so forget them. but b4 an intrest of the attraction persaution could occur, i became friends with evan. evan was the 1st boy who i actually wanted to spend time with. cuz like he wasnt into stupid things that boys were into at the time. me and him did the awesomest shit. but i must say evan started a problem, one that occurs in every girls life, he started me on the path to an actual intrest in boys, not the dating part, but the interest. i sooo developed a crush on evan, which of course he rejected, which i must say i guess was a good thing, or i dont think me and him would still be connected by the brain waves today. crushes and boy crazyness started in about oh 8th grade. always crushes on unreachable boys, why, cuz thats wut i did, maybe on purpose on sum subconcious level, that way i never actually had to deal with a real boy situation. also i had no emotion link to the ideas of boys as of yet, well except of course evan who i was totlly in love with but on sum odd platonic level. 9th grade started sum intrest in dating. like my interest was " i wanna hang out with a boy with kisses" my obsession with kissing has always been there and still is, poor shaun, i always kiss-harass him, ans sadly his interest in kissing is only there sometimes. but n e who. yeah 9th grade started the dating issue, which was left to wait till 10th grade. then i dated phil. which lasted very briefly and didnt go well. unexperienced and self hating me just did not know wut to do. that ended. AND THEN...came shaun ham. and there is still shaun ham. with him, i realised wut dating actually is and the joy of a boy( that sounds very lame). like i dunno, i still dont like other boys too much thou lol. i still have evan as my biffle, and have shaun as my...bestfriendy/lover/soulmate/everything thing. i ont know wut id do without him, and thats a wonderful feeling. he is the 1st and only person i love in that romantic and often lustful way. i hate being touched, and with shaun, i crave it, that was the issue that made me realise that damn this boy is special...lets see where me and shaun goes...thats were i am on boys and thats wut has happened in the life of casssie when it comes to the male species.
lets hope however that shaun does not turn into a werewolf like zombie who i have to kill only to then discover i am pregnant with him baby( COPYRIGHTED IDEA)