soo much on my mind
*sigh* ...people say that running away from you problems is NOT the answer, but did you ever think it really might be the right thing to do?? i dont really ever talk about my problems much bc im a very private person i dont like people to kno whats really going on in my life, and if i do tell you then it must mean you are special to me, if dont tell you then it means i dont really like you or theres some other reason why. but im going to once and for all tell my whole story to everyone....
Midland, TX ....everything was just peachy my family got along fine until we hadda move to this shit hole in 2001. it was then when my parents started fighting NON STOP but no one could figure out why bc we had everything we wanted....a huge ass house w a pool in a nice neighborhood. when we went out in public everyone acted like we werre a perfect family. then my dad started working in oklahoma monday thru friday and coming home on the weekends. EVERYONE in the house loved that he was gone bc when he was home all he did was bitch about everything. my mom talked about how she was going to get a divorce. she soon did. in november of 2002 my parents separted and my dad moved to oklahoma for good. then in january of 2003 we moved in to the house that we live in now. my mom worked two jobs for a while. and blah blah blah. we found out my dad had a girlfriend named becky! and this is where the dark cloud comes ..... my dad is 46 and becky is like 35 or something .. she has 3 daughters who all have different dads. becky is poor bc her ex husbands dont pay their damn child support....so of course what do you think she does... YES!!! ...she uses my dad for his money ... soooo blah blah blah time goes on and
now i miss my dad alot bc im a daddys girl. my mom and i dont ever get along anymore. she told me last night that i better think about living with her bc shes not "putting up with me"...and all i did was ask her to put some clothes in the dryer. hmmm i miss my daddy hes moving to california in august for 3 months. i really wanted to go live w him in oklahoma but now im really thinking about moving to louisiana w my grandma n going to a catholic school bc im tired of dealing w my family probs ...i hate that my mom is always mad at me. i hate how i only get to see my dad 5 times a year. i hate how my family isnt happy anymore. i hate the fact that becky ruined my parents relationship ...they were sooo close to getting back together but if the fuckface would have taken her birth control pills then nothing woulda happened. i hate that im going to have another sis that isnt from the same mom as me. i hate that we had to move to houston in the first place. i hate houston. i miss my old friends who have probably forgotten about me ,,, yeah the ones that i have know since i was in kindergarten... the ones that i was planning on graduating high school with. i hate that i have to go to cyfair. i hate that i have 2 more years of school left. i hate sooo much more about my life, so much that would have never happened if one little simple thing wouldnt have changed... if i would have never moved to houston in the first place i wouldnt even have to write any of this...........
Midland, TX ....everything was just peachy my family got along fine until we hadda move to this shit hole in 2001. it was then when my parents started fighting NON STOP but no one could figure out why bc we had everything we wanted....a huge ass house w a pool in a nice neighborhood. when we went out in public everyone acted like we werre a perfect family. then my dad started working in oklahoma monday thru friday and coming home on the weekends. EVERYONE in the house loved that he was gone bc when he was home all he did was bitch about everything. my mom talked about how she was going to get a divorce. she soon did. in november of 2002 my parents separted and my dad moved to oklahoma for good. then in january of 2003 we moved in to the house that we live in now. my mom worked two jobs for a while. and blah blah blah. we found out my dad had a girlfriend named becky! and this is where the dark cloud comes ..... my dad is 46 and becky is like 35 or something .. she has 3 daughters who all have different dads. becky is poor bc her ex husbands dont pay their damn child support....so of course what do you think she does... YES!!! ...she uses my dad for his money ... soooo blah blah blah time goes on and
now i miss my dad alot bc im a daddys girl. my mom and i dont ever get along anymore. she told me last night that i better think about living with her bc shes not "putting up with me"...and all i did was ask her to put some clothes in the dryer. hmmm i miss my daddy hes moving to california in august for 3 months. i really wanted to go live w him in oklahoma but now im really thinking about moving to louisiana w my grandma n going to a catholic school bc im tired of dealing w my family probs ...i hate that my mom is always mad at me. i hate how i only get to see my dad 5 times a year. i hate how my family isnt happy anymore. i hate the fact that becky ruined my parents relationship ...they were sooo close to getting back together but if the fuckface would have taken her birth control pills then nothing woulda happened. i hate that im going to have another sis that isnt from the same mom as me. i hate that we had to move to houston in the first place. i hate houston. i miss my old friends who have probably forgotten about me ,,, yeah the ones that i have know since i was in kindergarten... the ones that i was planning on graduating high school with. i hate that i have to go to cyfair. i hate that i have 2 more years of school left. i hate sooo much more about my life, so much that would have never happened if one little simple thing wouldnt have changed... if i would have never moved to houston in the first place i wouldnt even have to write any of this...........