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well i kno its been a whilee
i dont find time to update anymore
i feel like im losing all the good qualities that i used to have i feel like everything about me that i used to love and everything i would work hard to get is just gone..i dont try anymoree i dont feel like myself im not happy now like i used to be..whats missing? thiers something that i feel and kno is wrong with me and i know wat it is im just to afriad to admit it
i love all my friends to death and its hard when you dont go to the same school as them but you just have to keep in touch
lastyear i cared so much more for little things in my life
but once an incident happened i let go of all the good thinigs that i should hold on to right now like family friends basketball school piano my own happiness
i feel like ive turned into this person that is never home n never talks to her family and is just 2 worried about her self sumtimes im tired of being like this..im not true to anyone anymore i dont kno wher i belong
im not saying im like depressed everyday b/c i always have fun all the time..but i kno inside im just not truely happy like things used to be ..the way my life was befor how i would wake up happy n now thiers something to think about during the day and wer i belong and not have peaple talk shit about me and be known to someone in a good way n have ppl look to me as someone that is just really amazing or inteligent pr anythingg something about me that im just known for thats good
im not happy inside im a very strong person inside but right now i dont kno whats going on ..i know whats missing in my life but im just to afraid to admit it to anyone ..not now..i dont kno when ill ever admit it
ahh i dont even kno y im crying right now..this is worthless
i just dont feel good enough..for anyone..
i dont want to hide anything anymoree i just want to be me and no lies
i want 2 feel beautiful
i kno it may seem like im freaking out or sumthing i jjust dont kno what to do anymore maybe writing about it will help me or something
since its the new year maybe i will try things differently and start out new butt i dont kno if its gona work out how i pland it to be..ive gotten weaker thiers no motivation anymore for me to be something great
sry this entry was boring for you ..i didnt really post it so people can look at this n judge me or feel bad or anything at all ijust wrote it to get somethings out that i wanted to
ill try to update more...
also my computer is being gay and when ppl comment on my LJ i cant comment them back b/c my email is all messed up or sumthing but u guys can still comment for me soo please help
well if you read all of this entry i just want to thank you ..its kinda of like uve lisned to me complain i guess..
well im outt lata fellers
i dont find time to update anymore
i feel like im losing all the good qualities that i used to have i feel like everything about me that i used to love and everything i would work hard to get is just gone..i dont try anymoree i dont feel like myself im not happy now like i used to be..whats missing? thiers something that i feel and kno is wrong with me and i know wat it is im just to afriad to admit it
i love all my friends to death and its hard when you dont go to the same school as them but you just have to keep in touch
lastyear i cared so much more for little things in my life
but once an incident happened i let go of all the good thinigs that i should hold on to right now like family friends basketball school piano my own happiness
i feel like ive turned into this person that is never home n never talks to her family and is just 2 worried about her self sumtimes im tired of being like this..im not true to anyone anymore i dont kno wher i belong
im not saying im like depressed everyday b/c i always have fun all the time..but i kno inside im just not truely happy like things used to be ..the way my life was befor how i would wake up happy n now thiers something to think about during the day and wer i belong and not have peaple talk shit about me and be known to someone in a good way n have ppl look to me as someone that is just really amazing or inteligent pr anythingg something about me that im just known for thats good
im not happy inside im a very strong person inside but right now i dont kno whats going on ..i know whats missing in my life but im just to afraid to admit it to anyone ..not now..i dont kno when ill ever admit it
ahh i dont even kno y im crying right now..this is worthless
i just dont feel good enough..for anyone..
i dont want to hide anything anymoree i just want to be me and no lies
i want 2 feel beautiful
i kno it may seem like im freaking out or sumthing i jjust dont kno what to do anymore maybe writing about it will help me or something
since its the new year maybe i will try things differently and start out new butt i dont kno if its gona work out how i pland it to be..ive gotten weaker thiers no motivation anymore for me to be something great
sry this entry was boring for you ..i didnt really post it so people can look at this n judge me or feel bad or anything at all ijust wrote it to get somethings out that i wanted to
ill try to update more...
also my computer is being gay and when ppl comment on my LJ i cant comment them back b/c my email is all messed up or sumthing but u guys can still comment for me soo please help
well if you read all of this entry i just want to thank you ..its kinda of like uve lisned to me complain i guess..
well im outt lata fellers