I wish that I was as invisible as you.. make me feel

[babii_cakez_ox]

hey there.. lets talk.. well.. today i went to school.. we only had a half day.. but i went.. then me vanessa and sara went to friday to eat some yummy food.. which was purdy fun.. then i went home bc my ma needed the car.. then sara nd sam picked us up and we went to walmart.. then we couldnt find what they were lookin for so we went to the party store.. lol nd didnt get anything but it was fun to look at everything.. lol then we went ellicks.. where 3x almost broke my back.. but hey it happens right.. but then i got in a bad mood bc i was in pain.. then we just went home.. and that was that..

i cant wait for this weekend.. friday - haunted house and then saturday - jennas halloween party! eee!! lol cant waitt

sometimes its just easier to put a smile on your face..and hold in everything thats going wrong instead of explainin to people whats wrong.. but then eventually everything just builds up inside and you get to the point where you cant hold everything in anymore.. and you just explode..well thats how i feel right now.. ive held everything in for so long and now everything is just explodin.. and i dont know what Im supposed to do.. =\ ahh everything is just so complicated right now.. idk what there is for me to do..

ive never wanted anything more then i do now...
especially knowing i wont be able to have it again