Growing Up Is Hard To Do..
Okay.. did I miss the memo here? Cause it seems that everyone knows something I dont. I dont know what in the hell I did.. but it just seems like EVERYONE is mad at me for something or other. Now.. there are somethings I know I've done, and I'm willing to take responsibility for my actions in that department.. But what in THE HELL is going on with my crew? Okay.. so Jess, Lana and Erin got that house down the street, and everytime I stop by I feel so unwelcome, and it just didn't make any sense. This is MY crew, my best friends from high school. I come to find out that Jess is mad at me for something, what it is, I have NO clue. Bri said she wanted to sit down and discuss it with me.. I can't even begin to imagine what is going on. It's like everywhere I go I'm an outsider, even among my closest friends. Like I really need this added stress. I'm about ready to loose my mind as it is.. now I have to double think everything I do anymore, cause it might just make someone else mad. Like I've said before.. so I like to make people happy.. and my mom has always told me to be myself, not what you think people want you to be. So I have been lately, and (like she said I would) I found out who my real friends are.. NONE of them. I realized the other night exactly how many good friends I really have. I dont even know what happened. All of a sudden I went from having a huge group of great friends to having none. Through all of this, I have found one friend though, in honestly, the last place I would. Travis.. He's the only I can really talk to anymore.. but I dont want to bother him too much, cause I'm afraid he'll get tired of me. Then I'll really be left without anyone.
I'm under SO much stress right now. I have school, my job at Garfield's, my new job at K*B Toys, doing fliers for the bar, my "friends", and to top it all off, it looks like I'll be changing my major or something.. I just dont think I want to do this major anymore.. but I dont know what I want to do. Okay.. so there.. that's all the crap that's running through my head 24/7. But that's life and part of growing up.. or so everyone keeps telling me. Well.. maybe some people just can't cope as well as others.. does that make me a baby? Or just someone who needs just a little extra encouragement? Guess it's all in the eyes of the beholder.
~*Sherry*~
I'm under SO much stress right now. I have school, my job at Garfield's, my new job at K*B Toys, doing fliers for the bar, my "friends", and to top it all off, it looks like I'll be changing my major or something.. I just dont think I want to do this major anymore.. but I dont know what I want to do. Okay.. so there.. that's all the crap that's running through my head 24/7. But that's life and part of growing up.. or so everyone keeps telling me. Well.. maybe some people just can't cope as well as others.. does that make me a baby? Or just someone who needs just a little extra encouragement? Guess it's all in the eyes of the beholder.
~*Sherry*~