Oct 11, 2009 17:02
I wish I could just get paid for enjoying the beauty in the world. A job where all I had to do was sit and stare out windows and love how the leaves look when they turn colors and fall, and listen to music/look at art/read books/watch movies that made me feel things inside that aren't even possible to describe because there are no words. Because that's pretty much what I'm doing 99% of the time I'm awake. I haven't even SEEN American Beauty, and the quote "Sometimes there's so much beauty in the world I feel like I can't take it, like my heart's going to cave in." still perfectly describes my life. It's not even the perfection, sometimes I feel like the sad things are the most beautiful, the moments with pain and imperfection, they're so HONEST and raw. And sometimes even when the moment is happy, the happiness of it all makes me sad somehow. It really is true that you can't know happiness without sadness, or beauty without pain, in certain ways, they're almost the same thing.