The Broken Heart
No one here but You.
You who stand by me day in and day out
You who's presence I can't always feel
You, the only one who knows my needs
You, the only one who can provide for them.
But...
The only one I don't always know is there
The only one I can't always see
The only one I can't cling to
The only one I can't feel
Why can't I see you?
Why do I push you away?
Why do I run from you?
I see the pain
But I can't help myself
Perhaps I'm masochistic
Perhaps I don't know how to deal
Or...
Perhaps I'm just scared.
That perpetual fear
always haunting.
Fear of being another disappointment
Fear of never being good enough
Fear of being alone
Fear of being unloveable
Fear of not being worth it
Never letting the needs come in.
The need to be loved
The need to be sought after
The need to feel wanted
The need to be affirmed
The need to be hugged
But most of all, the need for YOU.
The needs give way to fear of accepting
There's really only one solution
To lean on YOU
but HOW?!?!