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To have us stay friends was all I ever wanted.
We were perfect for one another.
I fouqht with him like he was my brother and cherished him for the person he was.
Then one day he left me, he followed her and he left me alone.
I didn't want to push him to hard because if we were meant to stay friends then we would have.
I was broken in more ways then one.
I never felt so many feelings all at once.
Being hurt, betrayed, cheap, neive..it killed me inside.
I actually thought sooner or later I'd drown myself in tears.
I never got my best friend back.
We didn't actually grow apart though, we just grew up.
I miss the past sometimes, but there was a reason he didn't make it into my future.
Now I look back and ask myself if I ever loved him. I loved who he was, or who I thought he was.
I loved my best friend but I wasn't in love.
I think back to the time where I thought I could never get over his laugh or his hugs.
And now I know that i'm honestly happy he chose a different path in life, because he taught me how to keep myself strong.
I mean I cry for the mere thought of losen him.
But I'm fine, I'm okay because I got plenty of friends and they all look out for me, when times get rough.
I found something that is true. A part of me is empty without him. I'd rather have bad times with him then good times with someone else. I'd rather be beside him in a storm then safe and warm by myself.
I'd rather have hard times together then easy apart.
You're my hero, my hopes and without realizing it, you're sometimes in my dreams. You were and are my true best friend-
[.d e d i k a t e d.]