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Well school is out and thats good. Vacation has been alright. Monday wasnt my best of days but then went to Mackenzies and hung out with the girls. Today i went to amandas and hung out with the girls (different set from monday) . It was fun. so id say today was pretty good until i came home ! ugh.. my dad came home and was like "hey sit with me talk to me.. i get home and you and brian both leave"... HMM? i wonder why?
So me and brian tried to make plans asap. but all of his friends are busy or dont have rides and none of mine can drive so thats no good. but Boudreua *(wow butchered his last name)* was free so he was going to come by. Then Brian mentions i have movies that need to go back.. which were due yesterday so my dad was like so they are OVER DUE? bridget did u know you had movies over due? and i was like i jsut remembered and talked to brian about them. THEN he said i dont think i like that.. i was like IM PAYING FOR IT !!!!!!!!!!!! and i dont like it either cuz now im out money. UGH. Then hes like want to go for a drive and i said no. cuz first of all i dont like him and i was angry with him for his over reaction to the movie thing. and if he knew me at all he would know i dont want to drive. i got my permit so i would be able to get my license on time but i dont need to start now. Driver scares the hell out of me. so he goes in the living room like a 5 year old and my mom said "she just afraid of it" and he goes.. "no she just lazy"... i was like wow WAY TO NOT HAVE A CLUE JERK! i yelled IM NOT LAZY and went upstairs. Ended up locking myself in the bathroom crying then i took a shower. He makes me so mad. He doesnt have a clue about how i feel about ANYTHING. he doesnt know ANYTHING about who i really am.
THEN he knocks on my door and me thinking it was brian opens it. And hes like get ur sneakers on we are driving and dropping of the movies. At this point im going over everything in my mind and thinking about how hes insensitive and a jerk yet i cant say no to him cuz "hes my father" ugh. So we go and i drive and then i come home and hes like see stop all the dramatics and JUST DRIVE.
My mom always says we dont give him a break or cut him any slack but i dont think he deserves it. College is no longer a major fear of mine cuz i get to leave this building .
And im sorry but i really dont feel i am lazy. I do ssoooooo much more for my mom then he ever will. Im always cleaning or doing something cuz she cant. He cant even wait for her to get out of a resturant he goes to the car and lets me and brian help her to the car or walk with her. HE SO INSENSITIVE! UGH. now brian is out with kyle and im here.. with them.. prob. just going to go to my room and wait until he goes to bed.
_If he only knew anything about me_
And no matter how hard I try
I can't escape these things inside I know
I know..
When all the pieces fall apart
You will be the only one who knows
Who knows
You love me but you dont know who I am
I'm tore between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you dont know Who I am
<3alwaysandforever<3
- How do you talk to an angel?-