so scared, dun worry tho its summthin dumb! lol

[babes69]

2 day was great! babe came over n told me i was pretty, n he did stuff 4 me n i didn hafta do ne thing 4 him (cept laundry) n he kept lettin me knoe he loves me. n he was juss perfect! so afta he left i made dinner n did like 6 loads of laundry. i made dinner, n cleaned tha mess, picked up my room a lil. cleaned my brothers messes washed their pans n stuff, n talked online 4 a lil while. then i made mommys tea walked tha dog n at 11:45 mommy took me 2 drop off babe's clothes. i didn give him all of his clothes n onli 1 pair of pants so he'll hafta come over 2 morro 2 get sum more! lol but im kinda scared 2 go 2 skool 2 morro... i dunno wuts gunna happen..i dunno whoose mad at me,who 2 avoid, or who 2 juss run ^ 2 n give a big hug 2! so im scared.. n i dun want ppl 2 gimme tha 3rd degree n ask me a million questions.. cuz ppl that im not frends w/ i dun want ta tell them ne thing, but i dun wana b a bytch either...babe is takin his bus instedda mine, n im 2 scared 2 take my bus w/out him. cuz i always sat w/him n he talked 2 his frend so im not gunna go sit w/his frend cuz ill feel like a idiot! so i gut this frend mike that lives down tha street frum me n hes gunna bring me 2 skool. i dun like when he brings me 2 skool but im juss 2 nervous w/out babe. he was my comfort on tha bus n ne 1 that knoes me knoes that w/ppl im not frends w/n person im really shy n turn real red n juss have nothing 2 say... so i dunno wut 2 do 2 morro...i look like shyt 2! i tring on like everything n my closet n ic wut happens when all u do 4 2 weeks is....nothing. i feel so huge n it discusts me... i dun wanna wear a tight shirt cuz i feel 2 fat, but i dun wanna wear a baggy shirt cuz that makes me look huge 2 cuz its baggy. i did my eyebrows, took over an hour looks real good tho im proud of me. i wanted 2 wear a pair of shoes that i haven worn 2 skool yet n a have a million things that match them but then tha pants dont look good or tha shirt makes me look 2 big, n im juss real self concious rite now n scared shytless! i knoe its real dumb! n prolly nothin big is gunna happen ne ways, mabe cool n my locker'll b decorated! OR mabe all my books'llb gone n there'll b trash n it n things posted up saying sum mean stuff..i dun wanna stress myself out if its gunna b a great day, but i dun wanna walk n all souped n think every/NE 1s gunna b happy 2 c me, n then get all upset. omg i knoe im gettin all mellodramatic but its juss tha way i feel now..its quarted of 2 am rite now n i gudda get ^ at 5:20 but im not tired at all n cant even concintrate 2 do my project thats due 2 morro.man i knoe that theres nothing wrong rite now but mabe juss cuz i have 2 much coffee n me n not enuff sleep n im juss a lil crazy. but i feel better now writing it n i hope i get a comment on it. tell me if u think im crazy, cuz when i look back at this i might think so... but im deff gunna write again 2 morra so dun worry i wont keep u n suspence bout wut ended ^ happening so thanx 4 reading! i love whoever could read all tha way 2 tha end cuz i knoe its stupid. thank yoU!
love always always always Shayna!!!!!