wow..im pissed!!!!
bored as hell! babe was supposeta come ova 2 day, but he dun feel like it now. like friday he was gunna come ova n i was gunna buy him a pizza, so i did my hair n makeup n everything n waited 4 him at tha bus stop. he didn take tha bus tho. so i still waited 4 a couple of hrs sitting there n my jewlery n everything upset cuz he still hasn called n sed y he wasn here... so ne ways i haven hung out w/him n almost 2 weeks..2wednesdays ago.... n then he bailed. couldda seen that coming cuz hes not dependable, when theres summthin i want that only he can gimme he always screws it ^ 4 me, n cuz he dun think bout me at all... oh xcept i juss caled him n thats how i found out that hes not cumin ova n i told him that i been havin bad feelings n he sed that i overreact n he still loves me but i was prolly havin tha bad feelin cuz HE WAS THINKING ABOUT DUMPING ME!!!!!!!! a couple of days ago. n then he gut mad at me cuz i stopped talking (was crying) n he gut all pissed n was like ur 2 sensitive im gunna go get retarded. so im thinkiing FUCK you! but i sed have fun love ya. n hung ^ on him... then i beat my leg w/tha fone! lmao! hey thats more healthy than tha shyt i wanted 2 do....but w/e i dun even wanna c him 2 morro ne more... cuz tha chance that i actually do n he makes an attempt 2 do summthin 4 ME juss sitting w/me... he'll prolly start a fight n break ^w/me n sumhow make it my fault! so he can go screw off cuz i dun wanna c him ne ways cuz my bad feelings n im so pissed at him, 4 tha last like month n 1/2 hes only made me feel like shit! when i gut suspended, he sed that i better clean my room better, and work out while i have all this time! so i cant c him ne ways cuz everytime we talked 4 tha last week i ended ^ crying...everytime! either hes callin me a retard, telling me he was gunna dump me, callin me fat, or juss saying so much shit bout how worthless i am! i dont fuckin need that frum him! i do everything 4 him! n hes so secretive n has tha worst temper n dont do 1 fukin thing 4 ME. im so fed ^ w/him but im not even thinking bout dumping him...like i've sed 1000 times, "id rather b w/him yelling at me, than not have him at all" n i knoe he treeats me like shit n has 4 a long long time, but wen im w/him or he hugs me its all ok. n i stop being pissed till that 16 second hug is over cuz hes even told me he dun realy like hugs n 1/2 tha times we kissed he didn wanna cuz all of a sudde he dun like kissing. he did it 4 me cuz he knoes sumtimes i juss need 1. so i been getting pity kisses, n he dun like 2 hug. all he fukin wants is sex! n i went thru alotta shit 2 b able 2 give it 2 him. i went 2 a doctor n my frend ca,e w/me so i can get birthcontroll, i lost my virginity 2 him cuz he cant have a relationship w/out sex cuz he NEEDS it, i gut a 160$ bill cuzza my bc, i gut into fights n uncumfy situations w/ my mom n Dad bout me havin sex, n bc, i buy him everything his selfish eyes want! he dun take me newhere, n dun like talkn on tha fone 4 longer than 2 min, he dont like 2 kiss, or hug me, he wouldnt lemme go 2 my 1st freshman dances w/ my frends cuz he was jelous id dance w/another guy. im so fukin sick of him! he pushes everything n im not gunna dump him but im gunna b doin sum stupid ass stuff if he duz 1 more thing 2 make me snap! i fukin hate me n dunno wut im gunna do...