god and his damn tests
why is it that someone who feels as week as me always gets tested the hardest of everyone. all my life god has tested my strength in him and in myself. its not fair. i want a freaking break already. if being disabled is not enough i am stuck with having to live with my ex boyfriend who told me yesterday evening after everyone went to bed that he doesn't love me. that yes he cares about me or i would be here but he is not inlove with me. but yet everytime i want to drop my pants i don't see him saying no. it sucks i would love to just catch a break every once in a blue moon. i'm not a bad person i think i deserve a break every once in awhile. anyways i'm sick and i feel like shit and i can't think of anything good to say so i'm just going to go to bed. my life sucks right now because i'm sick and i have no love other then from my son and i love that he loves me but i want romantic love damn.