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i dont know whats going on, or whats going to happen to me. i just read kates journal and it freaked me out. i need to start taking a look at myslef and the people im around. it seems that other people allways get me in trouble and thats just not fair. i dont know if i am on oss or kicked out i have a meeting on monday with the administration. i just want to stress that you guys ( everyone) do not gossip or even talk about it or think you know what youre talking about, because this will probably get all of us in deeper shit than we are in now. i have been doing so well and then 2 stupid novice girls get drunk and barf all over the school- and it just so happens i was there with them. fuck me my life was fucked up and i worked so hard to fix it and now its fucked again, what am i supposed to do now. i need someone like sarai right now. am i allways going to be trash, am i ever going to get out of this fucking stupid town, will i ever amount to anything. im stupid and now im suffering for it.