AHHH!
im soo angry right now . i didnt want to write about this but sarah said she was a lil worried cos i hadnt written in a while & this is all i really have to say...
im so damn sick of my family! ((( the adults))). they all want me to grow up to be what they want , my mom wants me to be in teh Secret Service , my dad wants me to be a Chef cos its a "cushie" job. my gramma wants me to be a classical guitarist... my gramaw wants me to be a secretary .... I DONT WANT TO BE ANY OF THESE THINGS! i had this talk wit my sis a few mins ago & she & i both know im going to end up doing something "unique" and not quite what they expect of me & dammit i dont care if they like it or not ! they don't have to approve of my lifestyle . im tired of trying to please them all!! its impossible!
& another thing , if i do anything wrong they ALL blame my mom , no one says it out loud but they're all thinking it, yes i am dangerously like ehr , BUT IM NOT GONNA SCREW UP MY LIFE LIKE SHE DID! they all need to stop worrying about me ! they all think taht i belive every bullshit thing that she says & i DON'T! i mean she keeps tellin me im gonna move home soon , i KNOW it isn't gonna happen , ive known that . i mean yeh its nice to think about but its not gonna happen, not with my mother. i tell her i want to but thats for her peace of mind not mine. sonce her & sis don't always get along i have to be the one that will "blindy" believe my mother is trying to do whats best for me. my mom is not the greatest person in the world , but she's still family & they need to gt over the past , they've all made mistakes . she did the best she could with the circumstances .... really she did , im not THAT badly off,a m i . i may hav a few issues but what teenager doesn't?
my sister was the "dream daughter" im the nightmare , i drive them both crazy . tehy need to accept that i dont know how i want my life to turn out , i like just being along for the ride. my mom isnt used to dealing with me as an adult , but ive had to grow up a lot faster then she realizes , & yeh its her fault sorta.... so she needs to treat me as an adult.ive been makin my own decisions about stuff for a long time now , they BOTH need to learn to have more faith in me & that im not gonna screw everything up.............. cos i wont
im so damn sick of my family! ((( the adults))). they all want me to grow up to be what they want , my mom wants me to be in teh Secret Service , my dad wants me to be a Chef cos its a "cushie" job. my gramma wants me to be a classical guitarist... my gramaw wants me to be a secretary .... I DONT WANT TO BE ANY OF THESE THINGS! i had this talk wit my sis a few mins ago & she & i both know im going to end up doing something "unique" and not quite what they expect of me & dammit i dont care if they like it or not ! they don't have to approve of my lifestyle . im tired of trying to please them all!! its impossible!
& another thing , if i do anything wrong they ALL blame my mom , no one says it out loud but they're all thinking it, yes i am dangerously like ehr , BUT IM NOT GONNA SCREW UP MY LIFE LIKE SHE DID! they all need to stop worrying about me ! they all think taht i belive every bullshit thing that she says & i DON'T! i mean she keeps tellin me im gonna move home soon , i KNOW it isn't gonna happen , ive known that . i mean yeh its nice to think about but its not gonna happen, not with my mother. i tell her i want to but thats for her peace of mind not mine. sonce her & sis don't always get along i have to be the one that will "blindy" believe my mother is trying to do whats best for me. my mom is not the greatest person in the world , but she's still family & they need to gt over the past , they've all made mistakes . she did the best she could with the circumstances .... really she did , im not THAT badly off,a m i . i may hav a few issues but what teenager doesn't?
my sister was the "dream daughter" im the nightmare , i drive them both crazy . tehy need to accept that i dont know how i want my life to turn out , i like just being along for the ride. my mom isnt used to dealing with me as an adult , but ive had to grow up a lot faster then she realizes , & yeh its her fault sorta.... so she needs to treat me as an adult.ive been makin my own decisions about stuff for a long time now , they BOTH need to learn to have more faith in me & that im not gonna screw everything up.............. cos i wont