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::sigh::
Christmas was good this year i got
A Professional Camera
A Vanity
Make Up
Jewelry
Shoelaces
A Faerie Shirt
Some puff pixie thing
socks
a new mouse
money
perfume
(No one take offense to the following)
Ya so anyway the other night i reliezed a couple of things... that i have overcome my fear of bridges with water under them... i think its now becayse i am not afraid to die... i want to.... i also am not as afraid of clowns as i used to be i dunno y but they dont bother me as much... there are still thos fears of rejection, being alone, and never being truely happy...
so we are on vacation this week o yay id rather be in school... vacation = being ignored by my friends its such a joy they are always doing something with someone else and if that other person cancels well there always kayla shes got nothing to do... why not... thats always nice.. so if anyone wants to do something with me becayse they want to hang out with me sure but not becayse they have "nothing better to do cayse she has something else to do"... ::sigh:: the whole friend thing has got me down,,, i dont have anyone... its sad... i have slipped into something i cant get out of... :/ my friends dont talk to me anymore... they only do when they have to... i dont know what i did... maybe i didnt do anything at all i dunno... i am just no good enough for anyone yet again...ill sleep away my days once again and hope to never awake...
o ya and to my ex friend i know the shit you have said about me... you are THE biggest bitch
i also realized what i want which i will post later...
Christmas was good this year i got
A Professional Camera
A Vanity
Make Up
Jewelry
Shoelaces
A Faerie Shirt
Some puff pixie thing
socks
a new mouse
money
perfume
(No one take offense to the following)
Ya so anyway the other night i reliezed a couple of things... that i have overcome my fear of bridges with water under them... i think its now becayse i am not afraid to die... i want to.... i also am not as afraid of clowns as i used to be i dunno y but they dont bother me as much... there are still thos fears of rejection, being alone, and never being truely happy...
so we are on vacation this week o yay id rather be in school... vacation = being ignored by my friends its such a joy they are always doing something with someone else and if that other person cancels well there always kayla shes got nothing to do... why not... thats always nice.. so if anyone wants to do something with me becayse they want to hang out with me sure but not becayse they have "nothing better to do cayse she has something else to do"... ::sigh:: the whole friend thing has got me down,,, i dont have anyone... its sad... i have slipped into something i cant get out of... :/ my friends dont talk to me anymore... they only do when they have to... i dont know what i did... maybe i didnt do anything at all i dunno... i am just no good enough for anyone yet again...ill sleep away my days once again and hope to never awake...
o ya and to my ex friend i know the shit you have said about me... you are THE biggest bitch
i also realized what i want which i will post later...