This weekend
I learned alot this weekend, about myself and others. I really dont know whats wrong with me! Am I really a bad person, a bad friend? I really dont think I am a mean or ungrateful person. I always want the best for people and I really am nice. But like they say..."nice guys finish last" I tryso hard to fit in and feel wanted. I just want at least one real girl-friend, one true friend that accepts and likes me for me. I dont understand what is wrong with me, that people dont want to include me, dont wanna hang out with me, or/and sell me out. Am I really the problem? Am I too different for them, not good enough for others. This weekend I never felt so used, alone and upset about how girls treated me. I had every intend to have a good time, have a girls only weeekend and it turned out horrible. Why cant I just make real friends, not just acquantiences? I wanna be the person who gets called on Friday night to hang out.I could not belive how bad they made me feel and did not even feel bad.
**Am I really that bad? Am not not good enough, pretty enough, nice enough?**
P.S.I guess on a more positive note...Busch Gardens Howl O Scream was kinda fun, even though I walked around by myself and didnt have anyone to talk to. Halloween Horror Nights is better. But there was one haunted house that was great, After Hours!
I feel so upset.I wish I was........... I wish I had...........
**Am I really that bad? Am not not good enough, pretty enough, nice enough?**
P.S.I guess on a more positive note...Busch Gardens Howl O Scream was kinda fun, even though I walked around by myself and didnt have anyone to talk to. Halloween Horror Nights is better. But there was one haunted house that was great, After Hours!
I feel so upset.I wish I was........... I wish I had...........