I am So Bored
WOW, I am so cool, i am located in the libary on my spare. Stacy is not here. she's "sick" (ha) i am crossing my fingers, i hope to get my computer back tonite, so i can go on after work and talk to my homies (well i really miss tiffany) I really don't want to work tonite, it's going to suck ass. i am on careercrusing.com, and well, i have been thinking about my future sort of thing alot more, cause COME ON, i am going to be graduating, and well..... i need some sort of of a life. So many people are talking about the future, like who they are going to move in with and all that shit. and then there is me... like if i think about it, i dont really want to move out right away, cause for one thing, i won't be able to afford it and also i don't have anyone to move in with sort of thing. also i was thinking that i don't really wanna be by myself, cause that's what i call scary. I DON'T KNOW WHAT I AM GOING TO DO WITH MY LIFE!!!! & moving in with a friend might really mess up your realationship after awhile, cause when you live with someone you really find out how they really are, cause when you see them at school, you don't truly know how they are at home, and you just might get sick of them, and get in lots of fights and all that other shit. o well, it's still a lil yet long way away. Wow. this is so truly boring and i am just going on and rambling about so much random shit, but i have half an hour left, so i am really bored. I can't wait till i am done work, ill be able to do thing with people, it's going to be so wonderful. i am really looking forward to doing that list me and tiffany got going on. Hmmm, what else could i talk about?....kinda weird that i just wrote that, and well, any normal person, would probably just go back and erase that, and they also wouldn't say that they should have erased that... okay, i am done with that. I can't wait till i get married. seriously. i want babies, oh i love babies. i cant wait till like mother's day when then they can be like "i love you mommy, your the greatest" awwwww, i am so excited and i just can't hide it.. whoa-a-whoa. well what i mean by like "i can't wait" is.. "that i can wait obviously, but it's going to be so wonderful when the time comes" ya.. so back off! haha, i was just thinking, i am pretty sure no one is even going to read this. well i could always just read it over 3445435454353 times everynite, and make up accounts and pretend i am people, and leave notes... but..well... i dunno, i'll think about it. OMG, I AM BEING THE WEIRDEST LOSER EVER. and i now that i should just shut up. but then i will be forced to walk around the hall.. by myself, and then the principal will yell at me or something and then he will end up spanking me.. well probably not, but i could only hope, just jokes just jokes. speaking of being a loner, i ate lunch by myself at lunch tonite, it's not that big of a deal, in a way i don't really mind it, cause i never actually get "candace alone time" expect for when i am sleeping. like of course i like to hang out with people, don't get me wrong, but sometimes when i am bymyself, i really like it. i started reading a book today and so far i know i am really going to like it. it's my kind of style . it's a true story so that makes it extra good. it's about this girl that falls in love with this guy, and she completely trusts him, and then he ends up raping her, and she gets HIV. and the book is diary entry's she actually wrote. and her parents thought it would be a good idea to do that, since it would make other people aware of what could happen, it's really saddening, the fact that it could happen to anyone.. eek. back in grade 10, i told my friend my worst fear was dying and she made fun of me for it, she said that i shouldnt be scared of murders and everything... but seriously.. i really am. actually me and her drifted apart in grade 11 and we are starting to become friends again, which is snazzy. this year really made me relieze that i don't have alot of friends. it doesn't but me very much, cause i don't want to be popular or anything, that's not something that is important to me. I just liking have a couple of close friends. it's all good. plus, it's my last year, i really don't care what people think of me. i am not going to go around and be a bitch and be like "i don't care if you hate me" it's just that i am a weird sort of a person and some people just think it's strange. so i am not going to go around and be someone i am not. My friend stacy's birthday (18th) is in november, i am not too sure what to get her, but it should be something 18-ish. i think i should go soon, ~*i got places to go & people to see*~ One last thing i would like to include is....I WANT MY LICENSE. seriously, i feel like the biggest loser, i need to get a car, so i actually have something to practice in. if i practice i am bound to get it. with my license, i could have some sort of a life and freedom as well. just think of all the things i can do......go to tiffany's!!!, go to the mall, cruise around, hang out with friends, see steve! FRICK-A-DEE-FRICK-FRICK. well anywho, i am out. Peace